The Dream Of My Reality

Dream of reality

I get a strange feeling some days
Well most days
Its a very strong storm of anxiety
I hope it goes away

When i get this feeling
I know my worst dream is going to happen
I dont want to sleep that night
All i do is toss and turn

Finally
My body is at peace
I slowly doze off
This dont last long

It gets loud
The sirens scare me
i can see the colors
red, blue, red, blue

I realize whats happening
Its happend so many times
Its on repeat in my head

The scary part is
I cant wake up
I have to wait till its over
feels like forever

All i can hear is a soft voice
My brother he says to me
Its goin to be okay
Over and over

Im looking out the car window
I see her struggling
She is yelling
I begin to cry more

Please dont hurt her
Is all i can say
please
Just let her go

Im still dreaming
I can feel my self cry
But cant wake up
Im just stuck here

Then it happens
They get her under control
They slam her face into the ground
She looks at me

At this point in time
It when my body awakens
Im pulling my hair
Or hitting my head

I say to myself
Its just a dream
Breath
And count to three

It is a dream now
But it was once
Reality
A time i will never forget