My Depression

pain

The tears that fall I'll never let you see
Because its your fault for blaming everything on me

Its your fault that I can't trust nobody but me
And its your fault I sometimes cry myself to sleep

Its your fault for not being able to see the scars on my wrist that are bleeding threw my sleeve or the dark bags under my eyes from lack of sleep

Its your fault that your blinded by my fake smiles and laughs
All I ask of you is to really see the real me

I want you to ask why I'm quiet
I want you to ask why I'm sad
I want you to ask why my eyes are red
And why my cheeks are pail and dead.fail and  lock myself away what more of a hint do you want
You've seen my cuts what more could I do
You've heard my cries why didn't you help
You've seen me hurt my god are you blind

Stop waiting for me to ask you for help  it ain't gonna happen I don't like being put on the spot, I keep myself to myself
But you could act least try and ask why

I'm nearing my breaking point what will you do then?
"Oh my baby you could have said something, I could have helped" is that what you'll say when I'm on my death bed?
I have said time and time again I'm not happy or I just want to stay in bed

I'm tired please let me rest
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow mum I just wanna be dead
I don't want to smile mum it just makes me sad

I don't want to pray to god mummy he just makes me mad
He doesn't help us mummy he doesn't listen
He mkea me cry mummy he let's us hurt
He doesn't try to stop the pain mummy he gave us this a life just to see us fail and burn