Past Love

3

You couldn't sleep that well because of the position you were in mentally because of Youngjaes actions and your confusing feelings that you couldn't really explain. Your mind couldn't help but spin. Thoughts shot into your mind as you tried to figure things out. You were stuck, you were happy with your current boyfriend. But there was something inside you that still needed Youngjae. But you were just shit at feelings. You would feel guilty as hell if you just left him for someone else, you'd feel like all the years just went to waste just like with Youngjae. But even if you did, do you think you'd still be happy? Would you and Jinyoung be able to at least be friends? Soon enough you did go to sleep, trying to just block it out of your head so you wouldnt have to deal with it for a while.

~Time skip~

The next morning you wake up, you turn and look at your still sleeping boyfriend, laying on your shoulder with his hands lazily wrapped around your full waist and you at him smiled. You couldn't deny that he look beautiful and so peaceful when he would be asleep. You turned to your black nightstand where your phone was, you attempt to grab it cause you saw it light up. But as you went to move to see what was the notification and who would be contacting you that early in the morning, Jinyoung moved up to you and tightened his grip around you and spoke softly in your ear through your long messy bed head and let out a groan and a " Good morning babe" You said a relieving good morning and smiled at his cute actions. It nice sometimes you had to admit. You snap out of your thoughts and grabbed your phone. And saw it was Youngjae. All of his texts from last night, and his recent ones.

youngjae
Hey, I know last night was probably a little difficult for you and I wanted to say I'm sorry for any pain I caused you in the past and last night.
sent 8:30 ✔

You read the text in awe. You were happy and a little surprised that he apologized and wondered why he texted you so early. Usually he gets up a lot later and you started to wonder if he couldn't sleep last night like you.

You
Thank you, really it means a lot that you did care enough to say sorry you know.
sent 8:32✔

영재
Well thanks for noticing i'm trying. But, I wanted to make it up to you in a fun way.

You looked at your phone in confusion. Did he want something sexual from you? You got really defensive but before you got angry he explained what he meant. You felt your awakening boyfriend move and he told you he was going to go home. He kissed you and "I love yous" were exchanged.

영재
If you let me, I want to take you to the fair next week. I think it would be a more relaxing atmosphere for the both of us. And we could catch up, play a few games, go on some rides, what do you say?
sent 8:34✔

You thought to yourself that it would be really fun and it would get your mind in a better place possibly. Plus Jinyoung trusted you enough to be okay with it. Plus nothing was going to happen that would contradict your relationship. And you wanted to get out of the house and have a good time with him like old times. You missed him as a friend too. He was good at comforting you especially when it was his fault. But you really had to keep in mind that you couldn't slip up with this and do something wrong. It was already bad that you kissed him and didn't even have the guts to tell Jinyoung. You let out a regretful sigh and texted him back after giving your self a pep talk.

You
Alright, sounds like a deal. But no funny business lol.
sent 8:36✔
영재
Okay okay, yes ma'am.
sent 8:37✔

You rolled your eyes and a little grin couldn't help but form.

영재
It starts at around 10 so ill pick you up at 9. Sound good?
sent 8:38✔

You
Yeah yeah I'll be ready i'm going to go and shower.
sent 8:39✔

영재
Wow without me?
sent 8:40✔

You
Youngjae!
sent 8:42✔

영재
I'm just kidding i'm just kidding lmao
sent 8:43✔

You
Whatever. Ill see you later.
sent 8:43✔

영재
Ttyl.
sent 8:45

You shook you head at the him. He's such a kid sometimes. You got into the shower while washing your hair you tried to plan out everything in your head. But you kept worrying yourself. This was supposed to be something fun for the both of you. But you couldn't. You tried to distract your self with focusing on the pitter patter of the warm water that rained over you just for a distraction. Nothing was helping so just cleaned your self put on light, natural daytime looking makeup and comfortable clothes. You thought you would go out and buy some stuff for yourself. You liked to treat yourself sometimes. You put on your shorts, crop top, jacket, and converses and took a final look in the mirror and walked out of your bathroom. You grabbed your keys and phone and locked your door on the way to your car. You arrived at the mall a good 10minutes later.
You decided to get some new pens, pencils, and a new art book. The one you had now was getting pretty old. As you look up from collecting your things you see your boyfriend. You wondered why he was here. As you were about to walk up to him, a girl with long flowing brown hair walks up to him. She didn't look familiar so you got a little worried. So, you decided to call him. The mall wasn't loud so you thought it was okay. You called him the first time and you watched him look at his phone an decline. You got pretty mad so you called again. He you asked him where he was and he said he was home. You asked him was he busy the first time and he said he was just talking with his mom because she came to visit. You couldn't believe he would lie to you. You told him okay and he hung up. You couldn't even cry. You were so angry because you've been beating your self up over kissing your ex and he's lying to you and cheating on you from the looks of it. So you went up to the cashier and payed for your things and left. You were on your way home and when you got there you threw your stuff down and didn't even take off your makeup. You sat in your bed confused and crying. You didn't know why he'd do this. You thought everything was fine. You thought he was happy with you but apparently not. You put your phone on silent and just let your sleep drift to sleep. You didn't know what else do. You where broken.