I looked at you
I smiled and I knew I screwed myself over
But why you
Better yet why me
You saved me
I didn't deserve to be saved
All I have ever seen of you is a complete blur
I have glasses to see clearly
But I know that's not who I really want to be
Even if its just in front of you
Why can't I get over you
You don't even like me
I am a sister to you basically
You are my best friend
And that's all it would ever be
Me as a family member
No you are not my real brother
You are my best friend
You are more than I have ever had growing up
Rather it be a best friend or someone who cares about me
I don't have a lot of people who care
Especially outside my family
I don't trust hardly anyone
I trust you
I trust maybe 5 other people besides you
But why am I so attached to you
It had to be the way you looked at me
No
It couldn't have been
Maybe its the love you've showed me that no one else did
I look up to you and you never seem to not entertain me
I love you more than you will ever know
Even once I have kids you will always be in my heart
We have shared so much
I cant lose you
Not because I am scared you'll tell people
But
But because I love you
I love you for everything you've done for me
In the past 4 years we've been friends
You are my superman and I'm just a bug
An annoying bug
That you could kill just by stepping on me
Crushing my soul
But that is because id take a bullet for you
Any day of the year
I don't think you understand how much you mean to me
Just by the smallest things
Even my heart skips a beat when you don't flinch when I kiss your forehead
Or when I put my head on your shoulder
You're always there
Always have been
Why
Why do you stay
I'm not great
Hell I am not mentally stable
I have so much wrong with me
Why do you stay
I make your life hell
So why do you stay
