Dear You,

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Now you may be wondering what this "book" is about. Well it isn't just any old book. It's more of a diary, inside my life, my feelings, my thoughts. Now i'm not searching for sympathy or anything, I don't need to seek help, nobody knows how I really feel. This is why i'm anonymous and only telling you people [ the readers ].

After watching 13 reasons why I was inspired by the tapes. Day by day , page my page, every page or chapter is a different one. They all connect to each other like a food chain. This may relate to others and if so you can comment or talk to me about it in private.

Now here we go ; Page 1

Dear You,
     Have you ever felt lonely or alone? Have you ever felt left out or not good enough? Have you ever felt unwanted or ugly? It's not jealousy that I felt.
      I would say this all started in 5th grade I was being bullied by this one kid. My 2 front teeth were big and looked like bugs bunny, my nose is big and my style wasn't really all up to date. I really find it funny how now that I glowed up my teeth grew to fit me and my nose is still big but not as huge. Tbh in my opinion i thought I started looking and dressing cute when i was in 7-8th grade.
   Back to this one kid. His name was Nathaniel but we all called him Nathan. After school I went to an after school program until my mom picked me up. This kid tbh wasn't bad looking but I never had a crush on him or anything. I never did anything bad to him or anything. Never threw dirt on his name or whatever. It seemed to he every time i was around him or with my friends and he showed up it was his opportunity. He would constantly  say to me "oh you have teeth like bugs bunny" , or "youre ugly kid get away", "you have big teeth" and then would imitate how they looked. I just would shrug it off. The next time was when it was the first day of school and I picked out my outfit and my new jordans since I was obsessed with them and it was also my last year in 5th grade before I moved on to middle school. I wore a white and pink polo shorts, jeans from Abercrombie and fitch, and white and red jordans (air jordan retro 3s ). I felt good in my outfit until i went to the after school program. My friends were in a circle talking about their outfits while nathan was also in the circle and this kid named Chad, i came to find out Chad was cousin later on, anyways back to the story. Nathan looked at me and said "I like the shirt and the jeans but not the shoes so much they're ugly to me" and as soon as Nathan said that Chad came in . "Her shoes look like nail flatteners". Of course every started laughing except for my 3 friends. They then started bashing on Nathan saying "thats why you have to wear a uniform , shutup your ugly". After that point I didn't care but deep down it did hurt. I never told my parents this I seem to just keep it to myself and bottle it up.

After I graduated from the 5th grade I moved to a different city, only 10 minutes away. I thought Maybe this time it will be different you know....