Anguish

Hidden

You vanished into thin air,
And left behind a hole inside of me,
A hole that opens up when you're near,
And never closes, just reappears?

Why does it do that?
Was that your mission all along?

To leave me alone,
Or to turn my heart to stone?
To break more of me,
Just to see me damaged?

But still my mind urges me on,
Saying that maybe you were the one broken,

So I stayed,
Because I thought you needed me,
Maybe about as much as I needed you,
Maybe also hoping that I'd have you.

So, did I?
Did I have all of you,
Or was it the other way,
Did you have all of me instead?

Did you have too much of me?
To the point I couldn't recognise myself,
To the point my reflection turned away from me,
To the point I thought there was a part of me in you?

And I was terrified,
Because for the first time, I finally saw the demon,
Hidden,
Inside of you.