Lost it all

Part 1

Here i am.
In a new town,on my own.
Wait no not fully i still have my little dog mikey.
Well again not on my own i'm going to live with my aunt and uncle.
They have a daughter who's 15 ,and a son of 17 like me.
It's the end of the summer and i lost it all.
Not in a car accident.
Not the house who got burned.
No my stepdad took my mum and brother away from me,yes he killed them. That bastard,my best friend who i loved the most she pretents like i don't exist anymore.
I Harper evans,17 years old am alone.
In my mind i'm a no one.
But hey that's what the most of us think right.
That we are nothing.
Lost in reality it sucks cuz i feel more alive in my dreams.
Oke back to what i was saying.
So i'm moving in with my aunt and uncle and there son and daughter.
I knocked at the black door,while holding mikey thight.
My aunt rose Opened the door and when she saw me her eyes got bigger.
"Harper is that you,omg you've changed so much, are you okey,you must have cold come inside my dear" she brabeled at once.
Okey she's right it's much warmer inside.
I putted mikey and my bag down.
Mikey stayed close behinde me.
He's scared ever since..
aunt started to yell.

"BERNARD,ALEXIA,ETHAN.HARPER IS HERE"

Suddenly i heard a lot of noise.
Well that must be them.
Bernard my uncle came first.
"Wow Harper you've become so pretty"
Yeah sure that's why everyone bullies me,i didn't say that out loud ofc.

"Damn if we weren't family i would totally take you"said ethan
Well ewww am I going to live with a pervert?
"Ethan wth man she just came here and you go all pervert on her,you probably scared the shit outta her"alexia said

I think alexia and me are going to be great friends."that dog is so cute,what's his name can i pet it" alexia said
"Yeah sure" i answered a bit unsure.
"So your going to live with us? Ethan can u show her room"aunt said

"Sure" ethan answered
Aunt u gotta be kidding me you're.
sending me away with this pervert,are u insane? "Soo this is your room cutiebun"Ethan said.
Can i just,rip his balls of and give it to him as breakfast this is not cool.
"Go to sleep tomorrow you have school" Ethan said.
u gotta be kidding me.
1.i just came here and need to go to school
2. Hell to the no i am going to sleep.

Alexia comes inside me room.
"Hi girl sorry fory brother,do u like 5sos?or shawn mendes?" She asks hopeful
"Yeah i love them i used to Fangirl daily"i told her honest.
"Did you heard shawn's new song" she asks
"Yeah it's the b o m that beat" i told her while taping my foot.
After a hour talking and all she left
I feel the lonelyness again.
I guess mikey knew it because he came laying close to me.

i'm not sure how to feel,i mean no one loves me i get that.
everyone leaves.
well that's life i guess.
i searched for my blade,rolled up my sleeve.
and did bring the metal to my skin.
it feels honestly amazing.
getting numb.
after that i decided to go shower.
in the shower i cried my eyes out.
i never cry in public afraid of everyone,everything.
i mean
you cut:attention seeker
you starve:anorexia patient
you cry:your weak
that's what people think.
this society is broken,who can you trust who can you believe this day's.

nobody knows honestly how fucked up i am,maybe it is better that no one knows.
i came out the shower and dried my hair,brushed my teeths.
when i came in my room i saw that mikey was sleeping peaceful.
i looked at him and smiled,knowing he was the only one i had.
my little boy.
my smile changed fast,to fast.
i started to think about my mum.
guess she's happier now.
i still miss her and my brother daily.

i took my earphones and played some music.
i didn't want to wake up mikey
well this is pretty weird i mean.
everything,is this just a nightmare?
i wish this wasn't reality.
people die we break.

did u ever feel like drowning while seeing everyone around you breathing.
yeah i know..
i know girl/boy exactly how you feel.

yeah life's unfair.
but we could be heroes,but no we aren't.

"flashback"
mummy mummy i made mister potatoe i told my mum

my mum looked at me and smiled
sweety i love it she told me

mum will you forever stay by my side and love me,i don't wanna fall in love i wanna be forever young said my 6 year old self

"end flashback"

god i loved that time,i loved making potato people.
i always imagined them as my friends.
weird huh.
when i decided to go to bed i saw that mikey had taking a lot of place.
so i shaked my poor dog.
well "poor".
he woke up,growl at me and than go to sleep again.
damn lazy.
this is not how it is going to go mikey.
so i picked him up and placed him next to me.
so harper listen clearly,you will not draw attention tomorrow.
you will not act like an broken teen.
you will act strong.
i told myself.
god what am i doing talking to myself well fuck it.
at last my dreams aren't that weird.
oh wait they are,oops i may or may not dream about having a relationship with 20 celebrities.
i know i know.
a slut for celebrity,but hey it's okey.
with that i felt alseep,waiting for another hell tomorrow.

soo this was my first chapter,hope you enjoyed it.
above you see a picture of alexia played by taissa farmiga
all the love to you'll💕
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