(3)bestfriend || park jimin

bestfriend

i knocked on taehyung's door snd waited for an answer, but none came. i knocked once again, but as usual, there is no answer.

i sighed and decided to go back downstairs. maybe he just went out with the others.

as i reached the main floor, the wilted petals were still there. knowing jin hyung could be a monster,  i decided to clean all that up. i placed the book on the coffee table and proceeded cleaning those up.

minutes later, i finished fixing up my mess, mentally hoping that jin hyung wouldnt see it. i picked up the book and walked back to the couch where i  was seating awhile ago.

as if on cue, fit of laughters can be heard from the doorway. the door burst open, revealing five rowdy friends of mine. some of them sat on the couch across me and some went to the kitchen.

"yow hyung!! why are you alone here? where's namjoon hyung?" jungkook asked, slumping on the seat next to mine.

"i dont know. maybe in his room." jungkook looked at me. he looked confused and what so ever.

"you okay, hyung?" i just nod at him, but i think he got what i meant so he stood up and went somewhere else.

"do you have a problem, jimin?" yoongi hyung asked, criscrossing his legs and placing on top of the coffee table.

"it is nothing hyung. i just want to talk to taehyung. can you call him for me?"

"sure." then he walked towards the kitchen, leaving me alone in the living area for awhile.

"jimin, why? did i do something?" he said, sitting on jungkook's previous seat. he turned towards me and crossed his legs.

"no, you didnt do anything." i sighed and placed the book on his lap. "she wants you to have this."

"why would you want to give me something yours, again? this is hyung's gift to you, as far as i can remember."

"that isnt namjoon hyung's gift to me. okay?" he was caught off guard by my sudden change of tone. he swallowed lightly and moved farther away from me.

"can you stop saying these are my belongings?! i've told you this wasnt mine, okay?"

"jimin, you need to calm down, okay? let's talk about this without shouting at each other."

i inhaled deeply before replying, "how could i calm down when it really hurts? she wanted to give all these things but you keep saying these things were mine. do you know how much i struggle whenever she wanted you to have it? i just want her to be happy even though that means i have to be hurt." little did i know, tears were already streaming down my face.

"why are you being emotional, jimin? i really do not know what you are saying. who is she? is that the girl you've mentioned to me last day?"

"she isn't just a girl, tae. she is my whole world. she is the love of my life who is actually head over heels for you. you know, i was planning on confessing to her tomorrow, and i am risking our friendship for that."

"jimin, who are you talk----"

i cut him off, my voice already cracking from my sudden outburst. "t-tae, i am talking about seulgi, okay? seulgi, my bestfriend whom i am inlove with. she is the one who wanted to give you all these things but she's super shy that i became a messenger for her. i talk to her everyday, every single day and you know what? kim taehyung is always the name she says, and everytime she says your name, i die a little. can you feel my pain?" i laughed for a bit, a bitter sounding laugh to be exact.

"of course you won't feel my pain because you dont give a single damn."

out of a sudden, taehyung hugged me. he hugged me so tight that i can barely breath. moments later, he started sobbing. his sobs matched with mine, his tears falling down on the part of my shirt where his head rests. he parted for awhile, he looked at me with tears on his eyes.

"j-jimin...." he stops for awhile, drying his cheeks with his hand.

"what?"

"seulgi. seulgi was gone, jimin. she died a year ago, the same day on your birthday. suicide, she committed suicide.

jimin, i hate to say this but, you need to let her go already. you still have her, imagining that she is still here with you.

but jimin, please. if you love her, just let her go already. you really cant move on if you still have her as your bestfriend even if she is already dead."

i cried even louder from what he had said. but, i just talked to seulgi awhile ago- that is impossible. seulgi's still alive and i know that.

"dont say that, okay?! i know seulgi's still alive. we just talked awhile ago."

"that's impossible, jimin", he turned to jin hyung who is silently watching, "jin hyung can you give me the letter he threw that day? you still have it, dont you?" taehyung said and he rushed towards the stairs. i turned around and waited.

jin hyung went back holding a lilac coloured envelope. he gave it to me and left as soon.

"i'll leave you for awhile. i guess it is time for you to read that, jimin." he left without even bothering to take the book with him.

i opened the envelope and a piece of folded paper is in there. i grabbed it and quickly unfolded it.

'hi jimin. if you are reading this, please know that i am not in this world anymore. i am sorry for leaving you but i really cant take this anymore.

my parents divorced and my school kicked me out for an action i didnt commit. i am so sorry for not saying anything to you. i am sorry for being a completely, worthless bestfriend.

with all that, please know that you are one of the best things that had ever happened to me. everytime we were together- the laughs, the cries, the hangouts, the reading dates, the jog, the foods we've shared, they're all important to me.

in short, you are important to me, jimin. i love you, not as a bestfriend but more than that. i was just scared to say that because you might not like me. i've told taehyung about it first. remember the time he was at my house, i have told him that i am madly inlove with you.

I hoped you felt that way, too. happy birthday, by the way. please do keep these pictures inside here. they are my favourites and i want you to keep it so that you'll always remember me.

once again, i love you, park jimin. you made my dull life full of joy and wonders.

~ your bestfriend forever, kang seulgi. '

the letter ended with a lipstick stained kiss mark printed on it. although i have finished reading the letter, my tears wont stop falling and streaming down.

i pulled out the pictures that were included in the envelope, and i cried even harder.

these were all taken every anniversary of our friendship. in the same place where we first met- the white lily park in busan.

every picture has the same pose  where in, i am back hugging seulgi and she had her famous crescent eyesmile while holding a bouquet of her favorite flower- the white lily.

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THIS SHORT STORY FINALLY ENDED. THE WAY I WROTE IT WAS INSPIRED BY trashjar 'S WAY OF WRITING.

SO IT WAS ABOUT JIMIN WHO STILL IMAGINES THAT SEULGI, HIS BESTFRIEND, IS STILL ALIVE. THEN THE GIFTS WERE ALL FROM JIMIN, SEULGI DIDNT GIVE ANYTHIBG OR WHATEVER AND HE THINKS THAT SEUL WAS INLOVE WITH TAE BECAUSE THAT WAS HE IS THINKING ALL THIS TIME.

I HOPE YOU LIKED THIS ONE. PLEASE CHECK OUT THE SIX REMAINING BOOKS IN THE SERIES. THANK YOUUUU