Nope, (Kai x Reader)

Traitor

 How could you treat me that way? No, I'm serious. My mom always tells me to put myself in the other person's shoes. But what I don't get is-- how can a person, a human being with feelings and a heart, hurt somebody so badly? How can you live with yourself? Don't you make yourself sick?

 ... I've never had a bestfriend before. Well, not like the way we were, anyway. Sure, I had lots of buddies ... playmates ... pals. But you are the first person who I really opened up to. I trusted you. I told you things I've never even told my mom ... my inner-most thoughts ... my deepest secrets. I thought ... that we were closer than sisters ... friends for life. We were like ... the same mind in two people. You know?

 No, of course you don't-- because if you had felt those things, you would have never blabbed my secrets to her. I was so embarrassed! What about trust? What about privacy? What about friendship? How dare you! How dare you take my personal secrets and spread them to the first popular girl who bothers to talk to you for more than two minutes!

 How does it feel? Huh? Do you feel cool now? Are you with-it? One of the in-crowd? Or do you feel like a dirty, backstabbing, traitor-- which you should 'cause that's exactly what you are!

I sucked in the salty tears that was prickling the side of my eyes. I almost had an emotional break-down infront of like the first boy who actually seemed cool to me.

"Woah, woah!" He pulled me into a tight embrace.

He stroked my hair gently.

"What's wrong?" He whispered in my ear.

"I-I....Nothing.." I pushed him away from me harshly and wiped my eyes.

"Y/N-"

"I said NOTHING IS WRONG."

I turned my back to him, looking down.

I felt arms wrap around my waist. They pulled me towards them, hugging me from behind.

"Go away Vylad."

"I'm not Vylad.."

My eyes widen at the sudden change of voice. It was Kai.

I growled and ripped his hands away from my body.

I looked back at him, a blush stained my cheeks.

"Look, if you wanna talk.."

"Why would I open up to YOU?" I gave him a cold glare.

"I'd be damned before I trust anybody."

"Then I guess I'll just have to send you to hell."

"Please do, it's better than this shit of an world."

"This 'shit' is what you live on Y/N,"

"Who said you can call me my name?"

"Your mother that named you."

My mom..

"YOU ASSFUCK!" I punched him in the arm.

The once smiling meif'wa frowned.

"W-What did I do?"

"DON'T TALK TO ME, AND DON'T BRING UP MY DAMN PARENTS!" I stomped off pissed.

Who the hell does he think he is? He doesn't even freaking know me!

You better be glad him and Vylad didn't walk away from you when you randomly started crying you ungrateful piece of shit

SHUT THE FUDGE UP!!

No! You always get emotional out of no where and when people try to comfort you, you push them away. You know how many people actually CARE for you?!

WELL I DIDN'T ASK TO BE DEPRESSED AND HAVE SOMEONE TO "CARE" FOR ME!

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE

Lucky I am? LUCKY I AM?! HAVING SOMEONE YOU TRUST STAB YOU IN YOUR BACK IS NOT LUCKY! HAVING TO DEAL WITH BEING BULLIED ALL YOU LIFE IS NOT, LUCKY!! ALMOST MAKING SUICIDE IS NOT LUCKY!! HAVING THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARED ABOUT YOU DIE IS NOT LUCKY!!! YOU'RE MY MIND AND YOU ACT LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH!!!

Silence.

You know you want someone to take care of you..

You want somebody to love you for who the broken person you are.

You want somebody to heal the wound thats been in your heart since day one.

So let HIM help you,

Let him be the light in your darkness

Stop thinking everyone is gonna hurt you

Just give him a chance.

The last time I gave someone a chance they spilled my personal secrets everywhere, the last time I gave someone another chance they beat me to death. All the chances I give people, they take advantage of it and hurt me even more.

I'm not letting it happen again

Trust me,

He's gonna creep up in your life one way or another.

He's gonna break your walls.

A/N: I have no idea why when I was writing this, this song popped up in my head XD. BTW I LOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE MYSTIC MESSENGER!!!