Art book! [1]

Be The Best Of The Best

I'm really sad now guys
I was such a freakin coward

So when I was just about to tell my mother if I could get it, my mind pulled me back and I cowardly ran back and put it in its place

My mind told me that she'll say something like,"You could buy a dress with that money." Or,"That's useless it won't be worth it to you when you buy it."

Anf I knew even if I asked,she would say no or be disappointed in me because I want a sketch book.....
She would give me the 'oh how sad are you' look and say I could buy something better like a dress or shoes.

And my ssitet made sitiations worse when I asked her her opinion and she was like,"That's just a waste of money. How about you buy something that's worth it like a dress or shirts?"

And time flew by, And I ended up at home. I'm at my house tearing up.

My mother always tell me to pick a future that can take care of them, she wants me to be perfect, get good grades.
I may be born here, but I always wprk hard to get grades. And then I end up getting F's in my assignments.

It makes me worry about my future.
What am i going to draw for a living?

This was before my sister heard me crying.

She asked me what was wrong. I told her everything, shedding tears and coughing.

She gave me a giant speech.
These are a few words she said to me:
"There are many possibilities out there Bianca. Why do you worry now? Your only 12. So what!? Why do you care if our parents are disappointed of you? You could be something big,get alot of money, enjoy what you do and make our parents proud!!! You got to open your mind and think BIGGER and BETTER. If you want good grades you ask the teachers 'teach ne something harder' or 'i need extra work'! If your going to study something, you be THE BEST YOU CAN BE. Don't be happy with 'GOOD ENOUGH', you have to be 'BEST ENOUGH'!  Don't be hear crying just because you think you'll disappoint the whole world. God won't shun you down. He'll help you be the best of the best. I believe in you. And don't think there is only one kind of art. There's music, dancing, acting, more. Heck you could even be the principal/director of the most famous art academy in the world someday! Let God help you all the way. You'll see that everything will be alright."

She was right.
I have to open my mind more to more opportunities out there for me. I have to start taking my life and educational life more seriously.
In the end I know it will all pay off.
I can never be satisfied with'good enough', if I'm going to dedicate myself to something, I have to be the best of the best.

And I'm going to be the best.
Screw tears. I have to suck em up like a big girl. Crying isn't going to get me anywhere.

I'm sick and tired of thinking I'm not good enough.
I'm sick and tried of being useless.

I know i can do much better.
I know I can be the best.
I know I can smile and be confident in myself.

Just watch me.
One day you'll see smiling towards a camera.
And my smile won't be fake.

It'll be real.