you've broken me
so many times
in so many places
that i've lost count
but i still talk to you
i still look for you
when i'm lonely
and yet
you make it worse
as you abandon me
for something else
i still reach for you
to hand you my soul
and then i remember
you can't be trusted
with something so fragile
so i pull away
and talk about something else
never letting on
the tears behind my screen
you never cared before
why would you care now
i shouldn't care
you're toxic
all you do is poison the heart
i gave to you
because i trusted you to hold it
while you helped carry me
across the landmines and barbed wire
so i might come out alive
and you've dropped me
right on a landmine
across the barbed wire
blowing me to bits
and scratching and cutting
what's left
not that there was much to begin with
but i still trusted you
with what little i am
and you've stabbed me
straight through my already-broken heart
why
why do you feel like
it's alright
to help my demons break me
why do you think
i can stand on my own
when i can't see my feet
in the fog from my mind
you've thickened that fog
and you know it
but you don't like it
so you don't mention it
you apologized
not that you sounded sincere
and you've never asked me anything since
i start every
you're just proving that you don't care
and i need to leave
i need to get away
i need to run far away
as fast as i can
but i still can't see my feet
and they hurt anyway
i'll just stay here
with you
hurting myself even more
because i have no other choice
