i was— am watching my life fall apart before my eyes.
i'm losing all of my friends
bit
by
bit
all because of one persons lie.
now i'm constantly taunted by others saying i'm a "backstabber". Taunts referring to my ex-girlfriend, taunts referring to my depression
saying i backstabbed my friends
saying i lied to everyone
saying my ex deserved better
saying i broke her heart
saying i have no reason to be depressed
saying it's all for attention
i trusted them
god i trusted them
they know everything
i mean hell, i spilt it all
i have no one
they all left me
i am clueless to what to do
i keep telling myself that it'll be okay
but when?
i mean when will it ALL be okay?
because at the moment
i've been outed for my sexuality
i've been taunted constantly
i've been left
i've been depressed
i've been experiencing anxiety increases
so?
what should i live for?
my internal struggles are a bomb just waiting for someone; anyone to come along and cut the right wire to set me off.
because right now, my timer is ticking
slowly but surely losing it's time
nobody gives a shit though
they're all self-centered.
i'm worthless
-useless
-ugly
-a burden
-broken
-odd
-an outcast
-a wannabe
-weird
-a faggot
at least to everyone else
-my depression
-my anxiety
