Why Do I love You?

Chapter 1: And so it begins

I laid on my side with his arms wrapped me. I carefully got out of bed and got dressed. I tossed on a large flannel that came down to my knees. Checking my phone for the time I walked downstairs with a pack of Newports. I looked outside, it was raining. I stepped out onto the porch with my lighter and cigarettes. As soon as I lit my cigarette the door opened and there he was, just standing there. "Thought you were tryin' to quit." I rolled my eyes and dropped the cigarette, stepping on it to put it out. I walked back into the house pushing past him. He shut the door and quickly turned around. "Why are you so mad at me?" he walked over to me. "It's because you don't care about anything!" I shouted with tears in my eyes. "That's not true," he wiped the tears off of my face, "I care about you." I pushed him away. "What about everyone and everything else." He laughed. "Other people aren't relative to me, you should know that already." I walked away into the kitchen, "maybe they should be." I grabbed a bottle of beer out of the fridge and the car keys, "I'm gonna go and be by myself for a while."

    I walked out to the car not caring if I got soaked in rain water. I took my hair out of it's usual ponytail and let my hair down. Using a bottle opener I found in the glove compartment I poped the cap off of the beer bottle. I chugged half of it and put the key in the ignition. "Where to go. Where to go." An idea popped into my head. "Elane's house." I put my foot on the gas and drove away.

  After about 30 minutes I made it to my friend's house. Knocking on.the door with an empty bottle beer in my hand, "Elane! Open the door!" She opened the door, looking me up and down. "What happened this time?" She crossed her arms. "I shot someone." Her eyes widened. "WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!!" She shook me. I walked in and sat on the couch, "I don't fucking know Elane. I'm having a good time with him one minute and then I've committed a crime the next." She sat down next to me. "Veronica look at me." I lifted my head. She slapped me across my face, "You need to leave him." I started crying, "but..but I love him." She sighed. "Of course you do if you've stayed for this long. But listen, sometimes you gotta do things for the better. He's gonna either get the both of you killed or put I jail." I wiped my eyes. "I know. But I just can't bring myself to do it. Cause I know he wants a child and..and..I know I want a child. I know that...i know that I want his child." She got up to grab a bottle of beer for the both of us. "Stay here for the night so we can talk some things out." She opened both of the bottles. "Alright."