Sonder (niall horan)

Chapter one ~druken hearts~

James pov

'Stop!' I shouted 'Niall stop!' I shielded my head with my arms as he threw a glass bottle at me.

'Can't you just leave me the fuck alone'!? He yelled taking another chug of vodka.

'This is bullshit, she left 3 months ago!' I screamed running to him and snatching the bottle from him.

'Fuck you I'm going to bed' he said waving his hand shrugging me off 'you fucking wanker' he mumbled stumbling up the stairs.

Thats how the past 3 months have been, ever since Summer left without saying goodbye just leaving a note and her cellphone, he was totally fucked up over it. He loves her he always did. He was just to stupid to admit it.

Ever since he tryied to commit suicide I've been staying here keeping an eye on him.

I've looked everywhere for her its like she dropped off the planet, she didn't want to be found and I don't blame her Niall told me all the shit that happened between them.

Niall hasn't touched a peice of food for 2 days he just drinks. He's killing himself slowly but he's not going to die, over my dead body.

Summers pov

'Uh no'.I said shaking my head 'not in a million years'

'Awe com'on' Zayn begged

'Zayn I'm sleeping 'I said annoyed and turning on my stomach with my head in the pillows.

'Pleaseeee'

'Fine.' I mumbled giving up

'Thank you' he yelled

I wasn't really liking the idea of meeting Zayns parents as his face girlfriend but he hates going to see his parents because all the talk about if how he doesn't have a girlfriend.

I don't know why he doesn't just get a girlfriend he's amazying, perfect. Any girl would be lucky to have him.

'We leave in four days so start packing' he yelled from somewhere else in the apartment.

I do owe him alot he's been so kind to me helping me with everything.

But I did miss Niall my heart aches for him, but I didn't belong with him we're too different he would never feel the same way about me.

I wonder if he misses me at all or if.he thinks about me, if anything hes pissed off I just left but thats what I had to do I know it sounds selfish but I can't take it back now.

Nialls pov

I walked down the familiar gray hallway with my head down shaking my head.

When I look up im shocked Summers standing at the end of the hallway I smile and tell her name and start running to her.

But the hallways keeps getting longer and longer, I'm so close to her but I can't reach her the hallway keeps getting longer! I yell her name and run faster but it doesn't help she's just looking at me.

She turns her body and whispers goodbye and walks down another hallway I scream for her but she doesn't come back.

'FUCK!' I scream waking up with sweat covering me I have the same dream every night.

I reach over to grab my bottle of vodka but my hand his my side desk, I look over and see its gone.

'Fucking James' I mumble

Then it hits me Summers gone, never coming back she left I wasn't good enough for her I never will be.

I need to get drunk or get high.

I roll out of bed and stumble out to the hallway. I walk down stairs and go to the bar, I look everywhere for something to get drunk off but everything is gone.

'JAMES!' I yell that fucker took all my boose!

I run around the house yelling for him but I can't find him he must have went out.

I let out a loud huff and sit down on a bar stool I put my head in my hands and start to cry.

Why would she leave, Was I that horrible? I should have loved her I should have got her everything she could ever want.

'Why do I fuck everything up!?' I sob. 'Im pathetic'

I want to die.

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A/N

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