Herside Story

Prologue

Cree

Never have I felt like this. Her kisses are a drug and I hate to say I'm addicted because she entices me. And for a high school student I shouldn't even be here doing this but I can't stop. And this is better than any high I could get from smoking. But I know when I wake up in the morning I'm going to regret this.
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It's been a week since that day and I haven't spoken to King once. She stares at me in the halls and is always waiting for me but I refuse to talk. Why because I made a mistake I let her into me once again but I know the cycle I know she will never love me because her heart belongs to another but my heart belongs to her.

Never would I have believed I Cree Jackson could be so in love with one person but it happened. I'm her girl in bed but her best friend when they ask why we're so close. I'm tired of being a secret; does that even make since you shouldn't keep someone you make love to a secret. We were more but she would never admit that because that would ruin things with her and Natalie. They say it's not right for a stud and a stem to be together but to me we are more than that. More than the labels that society places on us. We are Cree and King.
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It's been a month since that day and so much has happened. I lost my parents and in a whole I feel lost myself. Who knew people were so selfish. As if to say drinking and driving was a thing of norm instead of a thing that should be avoided. Because it took my parents and I'm left here with two little babies to take care of. And no King to help me. She hasn't spoken to me in a week but it feels like years. Time just keeps passing and I lay here thinking how much easier it would be to have her. To let her hold me. But if I let her hold me I will completely lose myself.
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King

Her face is a thing of beauty. And her body could make any man or women fall in love but she loves me. I sound so dumb man I have the most perfect girl in my bed right now but my thoughts are drifting to someone who will forever play with my feelings. And I'm starting to go crazy because I'm playing with hers, my Cree.
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It's been a week since that day and Cree won't speak to me. I make sure to walk by her and sneak glances to catch her eye. I'm selfish so very selfish but I can't let her go. Kingsley what are you doing to yourself why can't you just love her how she wants to be loved. And then i see Natalie and I realize why I can't love her the way I should because I'm "with" Natalie.

Natalie and I have a complicated story. We started off as friends but I was always obsessed with her snd from the time she batted her lashes at me I was hooked. We would get close to dating then she would say she wasn't ready and we'd wait. This was a continuous thing for three years and I know what your thinking why not give up. The answer to that is because I am addicted to a girl I couldn't have. Well that was until this year when she finally became my loving girlfriend.
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Damn man it's been a month since we last spoke. A month and I feel we are breaking. Last week I stopped trying to get Cree to talk but I know that's not the best choice considering what she's going through. She lost her parents and she's all alone with her siblings. I just wish I could help her and ease her pain. I see her around and she just looks so depressed I know it's hard on her, my Cree. I've moved out of my moms house and I got a little apartment near the school, and near Cree. I want to hold her but the question is will she let me? Even though she knows I can't give up Natalie will she let me? Or will I have to let her go. Even the thought hurts because I'm starting to love that girl.... Damn I'm so fucking selfish man.
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Hey this is Hil💕 just to let y'all know I'm very new to this so bear with me.