Seductions In Stitching Wounds Andrew Biersack Love Story

I've spent years running from who I could be, who I wanted to be. Some where inside me there was something screaming, make it run for it. However nothing I do seems to make sense anymore. It just doesn't feel right anymore. I'm not confused with I am. More as though I'm not content anymore. I close my eyes are night and I feel or see nothing. There is no emotion in my work, my idea, there is nothing within me that sets me apart from everyone else. Once in my life there was something I look forward to but now I do not see a reason to breathe. I breathe just to live. Just to make it through another day. Where have the years passed? Where has the time gone? Nothing seems right anymore. 

 Please answer me. Where have you gone? Dear beloved of mine where have you disappeared to. Can you see past the shadows into the light where I stand? Or can you simply see the darkness that surrounds me. Close your eyes one time and sense my breathless heart. If you can not feel a thing I don't blame you. 

"Pari, get ready for school already. You late enough." complained, my step brother who was standing in the middle of my door sending me glares. "Mum said if your not down in two minutes she is taking away your care privileges." 

I shook my head in disappointment. This was no different than any other day of the week. I would be late Iva would threaten to take away my car. In the end I would just keep it and it was like nothing happened. Then there was Tyler he was always complaining that I could get away with murder. The honest truth is no I wouldn't be able to. However my step mother is lenient with me because I promised that I would keep my grades all A's if I could continue being in the band. 

In all truths though, it didn't last very long before I quit playing. Why you may ask? I have my reasons they aren't reasonable ones but they are my reasons. See two years back I lost all my abilities o play any instrument or sing anymore. It is all because the day they died I forgot what it was like to live. I forgot my meaning to being on this earth. The music that once ran through my veins began to run only through my ears. My soul dampers by the darkness that was concealed in such a tight way it blocked all light to my heart. Even though this is well known most people believe is just amnesia from what happened. I however believe different. My ability came from the warmth of my loved ones, once they left through nothing was left for me to believe in.

"Pari, hurry up please or you going to be late." groaned my step mother. I shook my head and made my way downstairs. "Hurry now. Take your brother with you." 

I groaned in response and motions for Tyler to follow me out. I headed to the car and shook my head slightly wondering why I was even here. I flung open my door, unlocking it for my brother and climbed into the car. I threw my bag over the seat into the back seat. I thrusted my keys into the ignition wanting this day to be over already so I could go back to sleep. I drove in silence to school not wanting to talk to my brother about anything. Even though he really was not my brother I did not want to talk. Once we arrived at school I parked the car and made my way out. I pulled my bag from the back seat and made my way inside the building. 

Why did I come here again? I quietly thought my self. Wishing I had just faked sick and stayed home. School was another nightmare for me. Simply because I was the new kid. Ever since the whole accident I just have terrible luck with letting people get close to me or talking to them. I'm afraid that something bad might happen to them too. However lucky enough for me I do have one friend. Hopefully he don't disappear on me. I maneuvered my way to my locker trying to avoid bumping into anyone. As my locker approached I saw a pile of messy brown hair pushed up against locker. A small smile spread across my lips, Matt was all I could think. 

"Pari! Jeez I thought you would never show up!!" pouted Matt, looking at me and laughing softly. I simply shook my head and grinned. "God your always late! Any who I have some good news for you! Tonight we are going to a concert! I got tickets to see BVB!"