~Cindy
as i look down at his recent post i feel my heart break.
'how could he do this?'
'was it something i did?'
'what are you thinking Cindy i did nothing.'
as i'm thinking all the possibilities of what i could have done for him to do this i don't realize that i'm crying.
i quickly wipe the tears and comment something.
'wolfiecindy: wow'
i shake my head and click out of my instagram and decide to call Stassie to see if i can come over.
S: hello?
C: umm hey
S: Cindy what's wrong!?
C: umm... can i come over i'll tell you when i come over?
S: of course babes
C: alright i'll be there soon bye.
S: bye
once she hung up i got my keys and put my shoes on and got in my car.
i started my car and drove to Stassie's house to only see one car.
'hmm i guess Sam isn't home' i thought
once i got out of the car Stassie came running out of the house and gave me a big hug.
"what's wrong baby girl?" she asked
i looked at her weird until i realized tears were streaming down my face.
"you haven't seen it yet have you?" i said frowning
"seen what?" she asked
i took out my phone and showed her Hayes' recent post.
i looked at Stassie and saw that she had a look of hatred and sympathy as she looked at the picture.
"i swear to god once that little prick comes back from Australia i'm going to kill him." she said pissed
i just looked down at me feet feeling the tears come back.
"come on babes lets go inside." she said
i nodded and followed her inside.
~hour later~
it's been an hour and for the most part i've been crying and eating ice cream.
i just still can't wrap my head around the reason why Hayes would do this. i've done nothing wrong but he still does this.
was it cause i wasn't good enough or pretty enough or what he wanted. i just don't know.
as i'm lost in my thought i gear the door open and a lot of voices come in.
i look up and see Sam and some of his friends and his friends are with some girls i've never seen before.
the girls looked at me and instantly ran to me asking if i was okay and what happened.
after explaining what had happened and getting to know then i figured out that they're names are Jaylynn, Nicole, Joanna, Ana, Haniya, and Aniya.
as me and the girls are talking i feel me phone vibrate. i take my phone out of my pocket and see i got a text from Hayes.
"what are you looking at?" Nicole asks
"i got a text from Hayes" i say softly
"what did it say?" Stassie asked
"just saying that he isn't cheating on me and that him and the girl are just friends." i said sighing
i get it and say "i'm gonna go call him and let him explain." all the girls nod and i go outside.
i take out my phone and go to Hayes' contact. i sigh and click his contact and wait for him to answer.
after 3 rings he finally picks up.
H: hello?
C: hey.
H: omg Cindy i'm so glad you actually called. please let me explain everything.
C: okay you have 5 minutes.
H: oh thank god. thank you Cindy.
~1 hour later~ (ha 5 minutes my ass)
after a long hour of screaming and crying we ended up figuring things out.
when we finished talking i went back inside and saw everyone looking at me.
"what?" i questioned.
"nothing we just heard you yelling and stuff but we didn't want to go out there knowing you guys were figuring things out." said Stassie
"so how did it go? are you guys okay now?" asked Sammy
"yeah we situated everything out and we're fine." i said
everyone nodded and went back to whatever they were doing before i came in.
i walked into the kitchen to get some water when i felt my phone go off.
i took it out and saw i had a message from an unknown number.
'unknown: you will regret stealing Hayes from me you slut.
unknown: he never loved you he just felt bad for your ugly ass.
unknown: why don't you do us all a favor and kill yourself.'
as i read the message i felt myself starting to cry.
'who could say such rude things like that?' i thought.
as i was thinking i realized maybe the texts are true. maybe i should just kill myself. i doubt anyone would notice. it's not like anyone cares about me anyways.
so that what i did i walked up the stairs to the bathroom and looked through the cabinets for a razor.
as soon as i found one i sat on the floor letting the tears that i thought were gone roll down my face.
'this is it. this is what everyone wants.' i thought.
i sighed and started to to cut my wrists. one by one the deeper they got and more the pain went away and the more numb i got.
as i kept cutting i felt myself get sleepy but it didn't bother me knowing that soon enough everyone would get what they wanted.
once i thought i was done i put the razor down and just sat there waiting for the time to come. as i was slowly falling asleep i heard the door swing open and right before everything went black i heard Sammy yelling my name.
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hey guys i'm so sorry for the late update this week has been a busy one i had an AP final that i had to study for and i've to go to a meeting for team manager for the upcoming football season but i'm back. so here's another update hope y'all enjoy. OHH AND THANK YALL FOR 18K THATS AMAZING. I LOVE YALL SO MUCH YOU GUYS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. BYEEE
