words i can't live without.

deserve

"And if someday you feel alone and everything caves in when you try to breathe, know that you are not alone as far as I can see, because you were everything to me. Through this I have realized that if I were God we would have all just died, because darling you were mine and now I feel so dead inside, and what good am I if all I can create is a projection of my own mind. A dream of finding time to remind you that I'm still here and I'm not fine. And darling if you're going to leave just remember who you are, and do what you can to remember me. Maybe someday we can talk about our past and we can talk about the weather. Whenever you leave I don't care what I'm remembered for, I just want to be remembered. Because even if I failed you at least I tried, and maybe our lives don't add up now but someday our graves will look the same when we both die. And if I had a chance I'd give you one last kiss and I'd bite down on your lip and I'd try to puncture it so you'll never forget that time, but you'll always regret. And darling I know sometimes life will take a turn for the worst, and sometimes life will even hurt. And I know some days, some days you'll be afraid of the lessons you'll have to learn and some days you'll even feel burned, and I want to let you know that I want to love you through them.
But I always get what I deserve. "

- Hotel Books, Nicole