Once belonged to death

Chapter 5

~the memories begins to unravel...and the bells upon the clocks...stopped.~

From all I can remember after I woke up in my bed is just the girl's longing eyes staring right at me. Almost as if she yearns to bring me with her and never let me go. The surprising warmth and heartache makes me want to reach out and just forget myself completely.

Slowly getting up from my bed, I sluggishly move my body to get a cup of water for myself. Recalling what happened yesterday and the words they said flashes again in my mind.... it's so vivid so it shouldn't be a dream... right?

"Ahh~ the prince is finally awake~" Prince? What a silly fantasy of his. What part of me looks like a prince? Even if I'm one, did I say I want to be one? What makes him think that I'm a prince? A royal one at that! What a joke! Would a prince sit here alone with no one to talk to? Would a prince have to eat pot noodles just because he is lazy to cook? If yes then wouldn't everyone in the world be prince and princesses?!

"I just want to tell you that you won't be lonely" wouldn't be lonely? Then all these years what have I been feeling? Where was all the people when I needed them? And who is going to accompany me on this boring life? No one. If there is.... then it would have happened long ago.

I sigh as I down the last bit of the cool liquid and walk to the sink. Suddenly something that the girl said before made me paused in my action... Leon? That's not my name! They must have confused me with someone else.... it made me sigh in relief as I conclude that none of these is connected to me... I need to explain to them next time that I'm not the one they are looking for! But then when I think about what she said about protecting that person... my heart wrenched in pain, it's not like the ache I constantly get in my head, but the sharp stabbing urge that felt like millions of needles are poking my heart continuously. The sudden pain made me dropped my cup as it shattered from the impact of the floor. Flustered, I quickly picked up the broken cup until I cut my hand on one of the sharp edges that I didn't notice. Hissing in pain, I quickly put all the glass in the bin and treat my injured hand.

" even the cup is against me.... how kind." I muttered as I wrap my hand in bandage. I sat in my living room just staring across... against the wall is a little piano that I supposedly gotten it from my parents when I was younger, although I don't remember it but I still feel a connection with it.

All of a sudden, a flashback hits me... it didn't bring any pain or discomfort, but an enormous amount of warmth and comfort. a soft and beautiful melody plays gently on the piano. So smoothly that it's enough to bring someone to sleep. Then a voice, smooth as silk sang over it.... so familiar and loving.

My precious gem of my life...

My precious life and soul...

Never forget who you are....

Just know that you will always be my star.

The voice full of heart-break,turned toward me.... gazing so softly and soothingly with a smile. She is beautiful and angelic, not a trace of impurity were sensed from her yet.... there seem to be so much sadness in her eyes.

"My precious child, your piano skills improved a lot from the last I heard..." She gaze at me like a mother looking at her child, the look that I yearned for so long ago....But not anymore.

"Mother..?What made you sad? Was it me who made you sad? I'm sorry that I was naughty again.... Please don't be sad!" That voice.... It's so childish and immature. But that's not my voice... is it? Why is my mouth moving on it's own?!

"Nothing can ever be your fault... If it's anyone's.... no.... it isn't anyone's fault. Just remember, you are you, nothing can ever change that. And if one day, mama and papa is no longer with you... you must be strong and live your life well! You will be lonely but... promise me that you will stay strong. Please...?" She burst out in tears and cried so pitifully all of a sudden. Like she is lost and unsure of what she should do..... She...She completely broke down... 

Her glistening tears trailed down her smooth cheek and down to her chin, then dropped. fell upon her pale hands. Without knowing when... my eyes was blurred by the tears pooled around my eyes. I felt a suffocating clench on my heart... is that fear?

"What are you talking about...? You and papa won't leave me right? You can't leave me! I don't want you to leave! Please...?" It was like a rush of emotions washed over me.... uneasiness and dread. Sadness and confusion..... and so much more.... Without knowing, I spoke in panic.

"I wouldn't ever dream to leave you.... but... remember what I said... alright..?" 

And that was the end of our conversation...before everything flashes red. crimson fiery red. And it was until then that I realise... she was my mother, she died protecting me.... and it only took one fire to completely destroy my everything...