It’s been weeks now since I last talked from Raven. I think he is out of town well that is what he always does. I received a couple of text messages from him but I never replied, I prefer one on one talks.
And a part of me tells my transparent soul that it wouldn’t be that hard to have friends here, after all someone is mixing something in my guts that says to me; that me and Raven would be friends. I’m crazy that’s what I know, I’ve been in this school for 2 years and it’s the first time I thought of having more friends.
Tuesdays never felt any better, schools out for some no good reason. So I woke up with the sound of a cat meowing and a furry face staring strangely at me; Filo my cat is making me get up early in the morning again, how frustrating. I checked my phone and some group messages from my old classmates and one from him. One tiny fact about myself, I am way better when I was younger than I am now.
Highlighted in blue. “Hey! JC! :)”
It took me an hour to get ready to for a conversation; because I first thought I would just be wasting my time.
“Uhmmm. Hey :)”
“Haven’t saw you for awhile, were you out of town?”
“No, I was at school. You ask me that, but you are the one who’s been missing :3”
“So you have been looking for me? Awweee. How sweet of you. <3”
“In your dreams jerk! I just noticed it and you left some crazy messages on my phone.”
“Did I annoy you?”
“Quite a lot.”
“Sorry, uhm I just noticed you are always alone, why? Issues? PMS?”
“Would make me a better person I f I tell you?”
“It might”
“This wouldn’t harm me right? I think of myself as introvert, an outcast and an anti-social freak. I never really had friends because I’m terrified of what they are capable of”
“You just need a little cheering up you need to get out of the box. :P Are we friends now?”
“We’ll see.”
“Meet me tomorrow at the Flower Park near the Conventional Building.”
“NO.”
And he didn’t reply back. It’s kinda motivating letting someone down, I gotta admit I’m afraid. I barely know him, how do you expect someone to go out with a guy like that? I braced myself and I don’t normally do this.
“Hey! You alive?” I for one was waiting for a response with a weird tingly feeling running through my veins, never felt something like this before.
“Please, you are the only person that I ever had guts to ask out.” Wow! That weird feeling grew stronger and I didn’t like it’s like I was about to scream out my lungs.
“Can I trust you?” Without hesitation.
“Yes.” He replied confidently
“Deal!” Without thinking of regret.
He said to meet him at exactly 11 at the park. With my hair standing I didn’t know what I just got myself into. I ended up regretting out of shame my head was spinning and this negative thoughts kept running back and forth my head. WHAT AM I GONNA DO!!??!
The creepy part is that very same night I had a dream about stuff being so screwed up, this is a nightmare. I woke up being nervous, suddenly I realized I’m becoming something I don’t even know what it is called. For the first time, I worried about looking good, I was nervous about my words, my heart was beating like an alarm clock but then I realized its only 9 o’clock. -.- And our so-called-date is at 11, am I over excited? Or this first euphoria getting out of hand that I am almost head over heels? I really didn’t know what I was gonna do. I was looking to our wall clock and time seemed to walk so slowly. Suddenly, a second felt like an hour and a minute felt like eternity. My mom caught that too. I didn’t mention to you that my mom never knew about this so she asked me;
“Honey, where are you going?” She asked with dominant curiosity.
“Uhm. Nothing just waiting for someone.” My legs felt crashing, it was the first time my mom truly asked me for where I was going.
“Liz? Where are you two going?”
“No, Raven mom. You will never believe this but he asked me out.”
“Really? Raven is that Franny Freud’s boy?”
“I don’t know?”
“Well, how come you never told me about this? You didn’t even ask for permission”
For a minute my heart stopped .
“Well can I?”
“Yes. Honey don’t forget to be back by 4, it’s your brother’s arrival” It was a relief as a compliment I smiled, a warm smile
While I was waiting for the arms of our clock to point quarter to 11, my mom had a talk to me telling me that she and daddy decided to take a little break from work they realized that our family hasn’t been spending some time together. Which is what I just really need.
