my first true love

chapter one

i wake up and see his face and that beautiful brown hair.
i just look at his face for a little bit and he pulles me in closer than i was before
" good morning beautiful" shane says
"good morning "
i kiss him
"save that for the wedding day"
i put my head on his chest
"but thats but for a week"
"speaking of which, is everything set up and perfect to your liking"
" yes , but is their anything you like about the wedding"
he picks up my head and laughs
" of course i do, it doesnt matter if i get to pick out any of the decorations , it matters who i am marring and thats you the girl of my dreams"
i push my face into his chest blushing like a little girl , i hear him giggle
i pick my head up and smile , i get out of bed and go straight to the kitchen and make some pancakes and some bacon

later on that day i left and drove to my moms house which was an hour away
knock knock knock
" ava is that you "
" yes mom "
"wow you actually came to vistit me"
" mom stop ive been busy with the wedding , which i was coming to ask if  you where coming to"
"do you want me there "
" no mom im coming to see if you wanted to just to push you away again"
" yes ill be there no im busy please go"

i walk back to my car and drive home

shawn pov
dang she is beautiful , and she wonders why i would want her
it is so crazy , idk she just left out of no where and left her phone here im sure shell ne back soon
i hear the keys and the door open
i see he eyes are puffy
i grab her arm and pull her into a hug
" baby what's wrong"
" nothing nothing im fine" she says putting on a fake smile
" are you sure "
she just smiles
" ok well dinner is cooking so you go get a shower and by the time you get out dinner should be done"
she nods her head and walks to the bed room

the next morning
(its back to ava)
i just get out bed of this morning or i try i feel him pull me back into bed
"good morning"
i smile
" good morning now plz let me go"
" why wont you tell me whats wrong, i already know you went to your moms , what happened "
i feel a tear drip down my face "she throught i was going there to start trouble, but i was going to ask if she was going to the wedding and the she pushed me away and told me to leave"
he just sit there and pulles me in as i cry into his chest
i wishper " over picking you over a family friends son"
he tells me to be quiet and that everything will be alright

i poke my head up to see his face , he is like almost smiling
" you know we never talked about kids "
he lookes at me  confused
"what about them"
"are we going to have any , are we going to move if i ever get pregnant , stuff like that"
"i mean i want kids but not a while atleast, but if it happened i wouldnt care"
i walk out of the room and he follows right behind me
" ava what did i say"
"you wouldnt care, what the hell is that supposed mean shawn "
"that it wouldnt bother me that i would be ok with that, why is that making you mad"
"because your wording, you made it sound like you wouldnt make and effort, it made me feel like you dont care"
he looks at me
he grabs my hands
"i never ment it like that im sorry it sounded like that, of course i would care, ava you are one of the be at things that happened to me i would never jeopardize that"
"one of the best things really, ok"
i grab my purse and my keys and walk out
how could he be such an idiot some times
i get in my car and i see him come out side and he stands by the car i roll down the window a little bit
"yes , shawn"
"you know i didnt mean it like that, you are the best thibg that has ever happened to me, dont leave"
i roll the window back up i back up and i leave