A Disaster Waiting To Happen

Chapter 1

I fell in love with the way he drifted asleep to the sound of his whale stimulator machines at night. The way his nose softly wrinkled when he smiled. The way his bright hazel eyes never seemed glum or disappointed. The way that he always supported you even when you are in the wrong. The way he whispered he loved me before we even started dating. The way he knew what he wanted and he went for it. The way he grabbed my heart and locked it in a locket that only he has the key to. The way he planted this child in my belly. The way he left without saying goodbye. And now, here we are, 12 weeks into the pregnancy with no where to live. How am I suppose to keep looking forward to the day where my life looks amazing and I have the perfect husband and flawless family. I guess that day will never come, for my family already has a flaw. My parents, as angry as they were offered me a home to raise my child. Me, being as stupid as I am, declined and said I could do this on my own. And here I am living on the street corner waiting for another person to have pity on the sad, pregnant, 16 year old girl with no where to live. It always happened. One wife or husband always felt pity for me and took me and my child in. One even offered to take me to the doctors to have a check up. But I always refuse. For I do not care how my child is doing. In fact, if it was to die, it would most likely be better. My child (I do not know the gender) would be better without the mess of a mother that I am. How am I going to support a child when it is born if I can't even support myself right now. No job wants a pregnant 16 year old girl to work with them. I'm to weak, I'm to fragile, and I'm to pregnant to stand more then an hour without feeling wheezy. To people I'm a disaster waiting to happen. I should have known this thing would have happened when I met jack. But he promised it would all be okay and that he would be there for me. He obviously isn't because where is he now? He's at school, because he can be at school. And I'm here, job hunting for the 6th time this week. My life is a disaster. Everyone was right about me. But only one person truly helped.