Slash imagines

Insecurities

Year 1985( Guns n roses aren't that famous yet)

I was home making dinner while listening to Queen. Usually I would be happy and sing along to the songs, but today was different.

"What did I do wrong? Why is je acting weird? What if je found someone else? Am I not good enough for him? Well of course I'm not. He will be famous rockstar one day and he will find someone much more beautiful than my. Much more skinnier. Much more better. He can do much more better. I'm just standing on a way of his happiness. I mean why would somebody even want to be with me? I'm ugly, FAT, stupid and creazy freak. And I even can't tell my boyfriend that i have Bulimia. Gosh I hate myself and he probably hates me aslo. And why wouldn't je?" I was talking out loud why crying and didn't realise that I wasn't only one on a room.

I turned around only to see Saul wide eyed looking at me like he saw a goast. I was emberest and afraid od his reaction so I ran away and locked myself in my room. I stood in front of the mirror, crying in discust. I saw all my flaws and imperfections and just wish to be someone else. Not becouse I wanted to be prettier to myself, but to be good enough for Saul.

I heard Saul unlocking the door with key that I gave to him on case if he ever needed it and of course I forgot that he has it.

He just slamed the door open and fastly ran to me. He saw me sitting on the floor crying and he hugged me like he never did before.

Before i knew he started talking ( while crying )" Why y/n whyy? You are PERFECT just the way you are. You mean the world to me how can you not see that. There's no thing on you that I don't love. Your hair remineds of a worm safe place, your eyes are brightest than the sun. Come on, stand up." I did what he said and he started speaking again. He touched my leg" This legs, c'mon I could just look at them all day and night and also touch them." Then he touched my butt"  And this baby, well lets just say is one of the best things on you" he said with a wink and a small slap on it. Then he hugged me around the stomach" And this belly that will carry our child one day that will look just like his beautiful mother." I started crying but now becouse of happiness. Than he touched my armes" And I love this armes that always hug me so right." Than he just kissed me. " And those lips. Oh, how much I love to feel tham on mine lips. I love you y/n and I'd love you even if you are smaller or bigger, prettier which you can't be becouse your the prettiest or uglier and I'd love you no mather what till the day I die. I want to wake up everyday and see you beside me. I want to grow old with you. And I know many of them says that I'm a rockstar and that I can't be trusted, but believe me at least this. I love you and I alweys will. Now I want you to answer me to one really important question." He said.

I had to calm down from crying to answer him. " Ok, ask."

He smiled on me and got on one knee. I started sobbing real hard when I realised what is happening.

"F/N M/N L/N will you make me the happiest rockstar on a planet and marry me?" He asked excitedly.

I started smiling and than all I know that I was kissing him. The kiss then turned out to be a heated make put sesion. After who knows how long we pulled appart to get some sir.

I looked Saul on eyes and he smiled and said" I bet that was yes then."

"Yes a million times yes!" I said excitedly and he put me a beautiful huge diamond ring on my ring finger.

" Well future Mrs. Hudson would you like to celebrate this with some wine, chocolate and some good movie." Saul said with proud smile.

"Why yes I would my future husband." Than I kissed the man of my dreams and my soulmate.