Forgiven

Clarity

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Clarity-Zedd

Marci's POV

Thirty minutes later Steven and I were covered in flour. He had thrown it at me after I insulted his cooking skills. It was going to take a long time to clean up this mess. We were currently setting the table so we could eat , so I had went to get the ranch out of the fridge.

' Ranch on pizza ? ' he asked.

' You've never had ranch with pizza ? '

' I've never needed it , my food is just that good. ' He replied with a smile.

' Cocky son of a bitch , ' I whispered under my breath.

' What was that? '

' Nothing ... Nothing at all . '

Steven then ran over to me and started tickling my sides. I tried to pull him off of me while laughing, with no effort. This man weighed like , a thousand pounds. It took me awhile to notice how close he was to me and the way his hands felt on me. I had stopped laughing and he then noticed the change in the atmosphere.

' What , did I do something wrong ? '

I looked up into his eyes. I tried to reply to him but it felt as I was barely learning how to talk. He looked back at me with so much intensity I wanted to explode. I've never felt like this with anyone before. It felt like I needed him just to survive and I haven't even known him a solid 24 hours ! He took a breath as he lean towards me. I licked my lips and closed my eyes. This was so wrong , but it felt so right.

I felt his lips touch mine. My mind scream 'SLUT' but I didn't care. I grabbed his hair and pulled him towards me. I opened my mouth to allow his tongue entrance. He ran his hands up and down my sides and left a trail of fire in his wake. He grabbed me by my thighs and set me on the counter. He started to lift up my shirt but then stopped.

' Did he cause these too ? ' He asked looking at my stomach and sides.

I pulled my shirt back down and hopped off the counter. I grabbed a few slices of pizza and sat down. Steven looked at me for a few seconds before taking a deep breath and grabbed a few slices too. We sat in silence while we ate but I could feel his eyes on me. Once he was done he got up to put his dishes in the sink. He left for a few minutes and came back with wipes in his hand.

' What are you doing ? ' I asked him when he came up to me with the wipes in hand.

He didn't respond and I flinched when he put the wipe on my face. What was he doing ? He continued to wipe my face until all my makeup was gone. He went to throw the wipes away and came back. He sat down for a few minutes before he got back up and came over to me. He took my shirt off along with my pants. I was really confused now. What the fuck was he trying to do ? After he finished he went to sit back down. He stared at me in my bra and panties for several minutes before he spoke again.

' Look at yourself Marci. Really look at your self and tell me what you see. '

So that's what I did. I really looked at myself so I can see what he seen , and it wasn't a pretty sight. Bruise after bruise painted my body like clouds painted the sky. All of them were caused by Conner's outburst at any and everything. Most of them were on my thighs. Those usually happened when Conner came home wasted and smelled of weed. There was no stopping him when he got like that. He would come after me and have his way with me whenever he wanted , which was almost every night. I feel my eyes water. There's no telling how bad my face looks without my makeup. This is who I was. I broken girl in this fucked up world.

' Why do you let him do this to you ? ' Steven asked .

' This is nothing compared to what he does when I actually fight back. You should be worried when I'm sitting in a hospital from being pushed down a flight of stairs. ' I replied wiping the tears off of my face.

' No one deserves this. What he did is cruel and he should be behind bars. I don't care what happened to him , he should know better than to take his anger out like this. '

I had nothing to say. I just sat there crying because I knew it wasn't right to let Conner do these things , but what could I do ? I tried to get him locked up , but he had friends who would release him within a few hours so I eventually gave up. Steven came over and hugged me. After a while he picked me up and carried me to a room. He set me at the foot of a bed and undid the covers so I could get in. I laid down and after a while I felt the other side of the bed dip down. We laid there in silence until I felt Steven wrap his arms around me. I felt safe in his arms. He wiped the last of few tears off of my face and kissed my forehead. I eventually drifted to sleep listening to the sound of his heartbeat.

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Sorry for the 8 month delay for anyone out there . I just had writers block and I've been having some personal problems lately so I really didn't have the energy to write. But I'm back now so...yay! Sorry for any spelling and grammar errors. Please vote , and comment because I would really appreciate it.

Xoxo -A