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used

I feel used again with know one to love me not like i imagine you would i find my comfort in guys who only love me for my body but i want more i want you holding me close saying how beautiful I am  how you could just get lost in my eyes and when i feel insecure about my weight you telling me my stretch marks reminding you of a tiger and my anger how you would think i look like an angry five year old. My friends always said you weren't a looker for years all i can remember them saying and now that your filling out they finally some what see what I've been seeing  in my opinion you've always been handsome but it wasn't visable yet it was waiting for a time that would prove everyone wrong about who they thought you were most thought (hey its him he might not be in the best shape but he's really funny) but to me your humor  was only part of you you caring especially to your family ,your religious and get mad at people when they use the lords name in vein, you love animals your new puppy is adorable ,your brown eyes how i could just get lost in the gold and orange flecks in them ik so much in my opinion from just watching from a distance and yet you choose to only say a few words to me i miss your smartass remarks in the back of the class and seeing you throwing a football in the field at lunch i don't know much about sports but i watch just to see you smiling cause ik its one of your favorite things when you have time and aren't busy i wish you still went to school of course i wish for alot of things.