you saved me,
if only for one night
you saved me.
you helped me realize
im not
as much of a monster
as i thought.
you made me realize
its normal.
what i do.
the mental games,
the alcohol,
the pills,
the cuts,
the smoking,
all of it.
its fine because
you helped me realize,
im not alone.
because you
you are like this too
we are in this game,
im on a higher level than you.
im hoping to win,
and the prize
of reaching the last level
and finishing
the last level,
is death.
but you are on level one,
and i am almost on the last level.
before you,
i wanted to reach the last level as soon as possible,
but now
i want to come to level one with you
and quit
quit this game thats ripping me apart inside and outside,
and
maybe
if we quit together,
we could begin
our new selves
together,
as more than what we are now.
because you saved me,
if only for one night.
and you made me realize,
i want to save myself,
for you.
