My journey to you

안녕? 친구...

I cannot believe it.
Standing in front of me KIM TAE HYUNG. I repeat KIM TAE HYUNG. All time favourite star, famous among girls, will melt up your heart million times faster than fire, has the most amazing eyes and smile. Believe me you can just fall in love with him at first sight because he is so damn beautiful.

Imagine all this time you've been watching him through youtube, social media, vlive and others thinking that you won't ever have the chance to meet him in real life let alone meeting the whole members.

But today, unexpected luck and miracle say hello.

"Annyeong!" He smiled. His smile can cure cancer istg.
"Oh uh annyeong," I literally lost focus because of his looks.

He was wearing a black winter coat with its hood on and puma sport shoes. Definitely boyfriend material.

Gosh what the hell am i doing? I shouldn't be thinking too much about him.

But how can you even resist his natural beauty. Its impossible.

Once you jimin, you can't jimout.

True dat.

Along his side was his bag. I mean my bag.

"Annyeong?" he waved at my face.

"Oh um sorry. I was lost in thought," I was so lost in thought just by looking at your angel-like face that shot my heart like a bullet.

"You've never seen a pop star this close before?" Just by looking into your eyes made me weak. Time to change the subject.

"Umm here, your bag and I truly am sorry for using your phone. Also, I fully apologize for the inconvenience that I may have caused today. It was all my fault. I should've been more careful," I said formally.

"No it's my fault. I was actually the one who took your bag. I didn't realize that it was the wrong bag but anyways, there's no need to speak formally to me. Just talk informally with me."

It would be a shame to not have his autograph or take pictures with him so that I can show to my friends but now, I actually felt nervous and embarrassed because he was holding my bag. My bag. It feels weird when my belongings are in the hands of someone else rather than me.

We finally exchange our goddamn similar bags.

As you know, he's a busy person. His phone rang twice and I'm guessing it was Jungkook or Jimin who called him to come up.

The last thing he said to me was "안녕 아미 친구! (Bye Army friend!)" and waved.

The whole thing went so fast. Meeting him was too fast.

But i want more. I want to see him again.

My heart beats even more faster.

That was it then. I would never get to see him again.

Keep it together. You are here to see someone you've been wanting to see for a very long time. Focus on that now.

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I was walking the streets of Insadong. To be honest, it was quite a scary and eerie place as it was at night. There were people and a lot of shops with korean music blasting but I don't feel that warm here. It felt much warmer and welcoming in Myeongdong street.

I held my umbrella tight as rain poured down heavily on it. The ground was wet and formed puddles of water, the sound of music playing which sounded like an OST from a drama and everything sorta felt like a drama. The girl holding an umbrella walking while the rain is pouring and it felt completely aesthetic somehow. Damn, kdramas got me good.

There he was standing in front of an antique shop across the road with a white umbrella in his hand sheltering his precious head. His dimples shining bright , his perfect hair, smart outfit and it all felt quite warm. It felt warm to see him eventhough the weather around us was really cold. Really cold.

He was my first crush. We were friends, best friends, close friends, boyfriend-girlfriend, strangers and friends back again. Its like a cycle and the pain would never ever leave your heart no matter how hard you try to move on. It will stick like glue. Super glue to be exact.

It's been two years since we were really close even I couldn't forget those memories when we were together. Oh well. It took me such a goddamn long time to move on.

I want to tell him that I want him back. I couldn't bear the weight in my chest. I want to let this deadass weight in my chest out. I need to tell him that I love him and that I would never want to hurt him. I want him to always remember me and how I look like when he's doing his degree in medicine here in Seoul. I just have to do it. Right now.

...

I ran across the street and I can see him up close but...

Someone came to him first.

I was too late.

Fair skin, long, silky hair, smells good, beautiful outfit and long legs. Definitely the type of girl that guys want to go out with.

And that girl was my best friend since kindergarten, Sarah.

They were hugging of course.

It all felt like someone had punched my chest and stabbed my back really hard. It hurts so much.

If I knew, I wouldn't have come here and make a fool out of myself in the first place.

And so I left. I don't think they saw me. They're too busy making love.

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I didn't know where my umbrella went. I couldn't focus on where I was going. I'm just gonna follow where my legs will take me and it also rained heavily with wind gushing through.

Me? Yeah of course I'm soaked. My socks, clothes, everything all damp and cold.

*BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEPPP*

I saw a strong flash of light in front of me. I really can't think or act straight right now. A car was LITERALLY IN FRONT OF ME and i was acting all slow mo.

Is this it? Is this where I'm going to die. At this hour? At this weather? Just kill me already. I'm already feeling the kdrama in me.

But then I felt a really strong grasp on my left arm and i was pulled from the road. I swear it was so strong it could break my arm.

"바보야 (Are you crazy)?!" Someone familiar shouted at me.

I opened my eyes to see who was the one who saved me from death.

Kim Tae Hyung.

Kim Tae Hyung.

God bless you Kim Tae Hyung.