You can't,
just drop a dead sister into the conversation.
If it accidentally comes up that my sister died, everybody freezes, their mouths hanging open and their eyes wide.
Then they shift around awkwardly, muttering apologies and I have to assure them that it's okay, it's fine, don't worry.
Well that's not all what happened today but usually that's how it goes: silence, shuffling, sorry okay.
It came up more when I was younger, before I learn to steer the conversation away. at any hint we might be heading in that direction. Sisters?
Siblings
Death?
Find the nearest exit, please.
In first grade when we were learning graphing, Miss Murphy told us to stand up once we got to how many siblings we had.
Zero?
One?
Two?
Chairs scraped the floor as kids stood up and sat back down, with Miss Murphy counting. I raised my hand to ask,
"What if I have a sister, but she's dead? Is that a zero or a one?"
Poor Miss Murphy wasn't sure either she said
"oh it's your choice "
Then she blinked many times and then erased the graph and switch to how many teeth we have lostm
That night she called my parents in for a conference to discuss what has happened and apologize to them.
They explained why I hadn't seemed to factual to the situation so Miss Murphy wouldn't think that I was a scary unfeeling loon and comforted her.
She retired the next year my mom says it definitely wasn't because I had traumatized her
But mom is like that,very supportive, always on my side and never gets mad.
My dad doesn't get mad either actually to be fair he seems generally pretty unemotional about anything that's not the outer planets.
Except when it comes to the subject of Brett just the mention of my sister's name makes both Mom and Dad kind of jotly.
They attempt to hide it burn now that I'm almost sixteen I try not to bring it up anymore.
And you know how if you just drop something on the subway tracks, you just have to leave it. Yeah maybe still see it, yournbead necklace your phone or whatever.
But too bad you can't ever get it back that's the kind of topic of Brett is like for us at this point.
But today it came up at Monday-out-day-lunch while Harry Styles insisted that his sister must have stolen his permission slip.
Why would adorable little Gemma, want to steal Harry's permission slip.
"it's a conspiracy" Niall explained in the Solidarity with his best friend.
"it's true" Harry insisted "Gemma is evil"
Niall smiled at that. He has the most genuinely happy smile, it takes over his whole face.
Before lunch Mr. Phillips had snap his fingers and told Harry,in front of the whole class, that if he didn't get his parents to deliver a signed permission slip by the end of the day he wouldn't be allowed to go on the trip tomorrow- the concert at the Cathedral.
Harry spent the whole lunch. Pleading with his mom on Niall's phone. (Harry's Phone was dead as usual)
While simultaneously shoving 3 slices of pizza and his mouth practically hold.
Harry eating this should be his own channel on YouTube channel.
Everybody would watch it, I'm not kidding it's seriously. that good.
