My mafia leader

Chapter 38

"I-I need some time to think." I hang my head lowly.

"Why?" She says in a breathless whisper.

"Because......Because I need to figure out what's best for you. I need you safe." I try taking her had but she pulls it away causing my heart to chip more and more.

"You keep saying that! I know what I need and want. I am safe, I am when I'm with you. Stop pushing me away! I love you. B-but it seems like you no longer feel the same way. We have been married for literally less than 2 days! And your all ready giving up." She says completely bewildered.

"That's not it! I do love you! More than my body can handle. I'm not giving up, I'm letting go. Because I have to.  Because my love over rules everything. And my love goes to the extent of letting you go. Just please, give it time." I plead to her. She looks broken at my words. "Just a few weeks. That's all, I need to keep you safe. And you have to stay protected till your back on your feet and healthy again."

Her eyes darken, as if they're isn't even a soul in there. She looks empty, and numb. I don't fear anyone, but at this moment she really is scaring me. My only fear is her dieing, and losing the love she has for me.

"No. If your leaving me, don't come back." She said with a hard tone, but the next things she says wavers and tears stream from her eyes. "Don't ever come back. I don't need time to know that you keep me safe, I have- I had no doubt in my mind that you would. And now your throwing me into the world where I am more at risk than anything. You aren't protecting me anymore. Your causing me more pain than anything ever has. You've just ripped my heart right out of my body and stomped on it. You promised, in your vows that you'd love me forever. That we'd never part. You were supposed to be my one and only, yet here you are leaving me in the dust. I don't know what I expected when I married you. I  thought id have a happy life. Not being left on the 2nd day we were married." She took a big gulp of air. "So if you are leaving me. Don't come back! Send  the divorce papers to my lawyer. I don't want any letters, phone calls, texts, emails, or check ups. I don't want anything from you If this is how you leave me. So choose." She looks me right in the eye. "Stay and love me, or leave and never see me again. Because believe  me when I say this. There's no turning back. Stay with me like you promised, or Leave and I will hate you, with every fiber of my being. An there's no going back after the choice is made." She looked me square in the eye. Her cheeks tear stained an her eyes all wet.

What am I supposed to say? She'll hate me and I'll have no chance at love again. Or stay with my beautiful wife and love her unconditionally like I have been. But she needs to be safe. Is she safe with me? There's only one way to find out.

"Well I guess this is goodbye." I look at her sullenly. I need to know if her being with me is the reason she gets hurt.

She gasps, and a uncontrolled sob breaks out. She cups her hand over her mouth, and her shoulders start to shake. I sit beside her and pull her into
My arms. She tries yanking away but hisses at the pain In her stomach from the sudden movement.

"Let me go." She cries out. "Don't make this harder and just go. I'm begging you. Please just leave."

I shake my head "I cant. I have to say goodbye to this life, but I couldn't bare say goodbye to you."

She looks up at me still crying hard. "What?"

"I'm saying goodbye to being the mafia leader. My love is much more stronger than my bond with the mafia. I'm sorry that I worded it weird. I can never say goodbye to you baby. Our story is just getting started. I love you." I kiss her pink plush lips.

"Forever and always?" She whispers through hiccups.

I grin and nod "forever and always."

A/n
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