Dark Days

overloaded

spiraling

plunging 

farther into the pit

of despair and anger 

can't stop my fall

green eyes

soft skin

makes me feel so small

you're so far away now

i want you still

but i can't lift a hand to hold yours

do you see my plea for help

will you reach for me

can you hold me close somehow

just don't touch me

because i'll shatter

and i'll hurt you

high-pitched screams

hyper-sensitive skin

i want your warmth 

but it'll set me aflame

and i can't handle it all

talk to me

tell me that you care

but lower your voice

it's too loud in here

the volume is grating

chipping away at my composure

smile at me

but i can't look at you

you're too beautiful 

and it hurts my eyes

even though i can't handle this

somehow you being here

just inches away 

helps me the tiniest bit

i wish you were here now

i wish we could breathe

i want you close to me

please

stay away

because i might explode

and i don't want you

to get caught in the aftermath