An Epilogue (I'm Sorry) [5]

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I just wanna say I'm sorry
Sorry for making you hurt more with the subs, texts
And basically everything
If I were a stronger person
I wouldn't have lost myself when we were together
And forgot that I loved you more than I was ready to admit
I'm sorry that I was afraid to love you
Because of my mistakes in the past
I can't help thinking
Maybe if I would have opened up more
We wouldn't be where we are now
But I'm also sorry that you ever had to meet me
Your life would be so much better without me in it
I wish I could have just stayed home that day we met so we wouldn't have
And you wouldn't feel the pain you do
I'm so sorry

If I could go back to save you the extra pain
I would
I thought we had a chance
But apparently we didn't
I didn't try hard enough for us to last
I wish I did though
Because no matter if one day you fall out of love with me or vise versa
I will always love you
And any pain you feel I wish for it to go away

You always deserved someone better
Someone who:
Listens
Cares
Motivates
Understands
And is brave
You never needed someone like me
And I'm sorry it took me this long to realize that
I really made a real mess of things

I Just hope that maybe one day you can
Forgive me
And move on
I was holding you back
I'm just so sorry that I couldn't be different
And not give up on you like everyone else did
And that I couldn't be the one to give you hope
I'm sorry I wasted your time
I'm just so sorry.

- Him

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