Unspoken Words

Living the Life : The Ella's Way #062720170001

Greetings! I am Marinella Berlyn but everyone calls me Ella or Berlyn. I’m a twenty years old young lady and currently, unemployed. I lost my job last january, and can’t even find a new job, yet. I’m a first year college undergraduate at ABE International Business College - Cubao Campus at the course of Bachelor of Science in Business Administration major in Finance. My previously job was at the fast food chain. My parents can’t support me so I need to support myself but ended up losing everything just to earn more. Unfortunately, I am living a life right now as a hopeless person.

Let me tell you a story about my experience in life. So far, I think I have been through a lot. I even asked myself what’s my purpose of my existence because I have nothing. I was just fifteen, fresh grad from high school, after coming home from a one month vacation in our province at La union, my parents told me that they can’t support me on college. It was really heartbreaking. I am a person with a lot of dreams and goals in life. I love learning and experiencing new things. I’m an adventurous person. I don’t want to live a boring life. But, because of financial struggles we are facing, I decided to earn more money to help my family than to support myself in studying at college. I realize that my dreams can wait. So I become a laborer at the age of fifteen, while my batch mates studying at the best universities and colleges in the country. It was fun at first, I met a lot of people, I learn new things and even experienced that being a saleslady are not that easy. You have to deal with the costumers as you keep in mind that “costumer’s are always right” even If It’s not. People, sometimes, looking down at you because you are just a person who works twelve hours a day, but still has a little amount of wage. It can’t support our daily needs but still, I need the job. I was just fifteen, and no other company can hire me because of my age. I feel hopeless, but then again, I do nothing.

When I turned eighteen, I quit my first job and tried to be a working student and luckily, I got the job at the same time, I was able to study in college, at last. It was a scholarship-like sponsored by the company of fast food chain. They call it, SEEDS. I need to work of a maximum eight hours or a minimum of four hours a day, after and before school for me to be able to support myself. Every payday, I always got the half of my salary because of the cuts for my tuition fees. It’s not really a scholarship, they just lending us thirty percent of our tuituon fee and take it from our salary. It doesn’t help me, instead, It made me worse. I was having fun in my college life, I become a dean’s lister even for a while. I got a highest score in every exam especially in my English Communication and Speech subject. I joined an essay writing contest and luckily, I won and become a part of Campus’ Writers’ Guild and do some things for the school paper. We do some research for our major subject. For the first time, I got a chance to visit ‘Banko Sentral ng Pilipinas’, National Statistics Office, NEDA and many more government agencies. It was fun, studying. I really love learning, but, life’s so cruel, In just a short period of time, I lost everything. I lost my job, and I need to quit studying because I can’t support myself anymore.

Therefore, I conclude that having an intelligent mind can’t really make you become successful. It was all about money. Life is all about money. In this world, where holding a degree or masters are really matters the most than being intelligent. It doesn’t matter If you’re a bit stupid, as long as you have a college diploma, you can apply in any job you want. You sure have a safe spot in every job vacancies, while an highschool graduate or undergraduate like me has none. Nothing at all. Working hard doesn’t apply in life, anymore. Those people who works hard are still poor, even If they have been in that company for a two decades, now. Doing your best doesn’t even matter. Happiness is not all about being who you are nor chasing your dreams, It’s about how you earn more, and how you become a better person for yourself.