The Girl Of Many Names - EverythingEverythingContest

This is ... me.

(sorry about any typos)

How about I start this off with a little bit about who I am as a black teenage girl.

Since I don't do the normal things black girls do, I'm pretty much a outsider but honestly I don't mind.

I have anger issues but I never like to hurt peoples feelings. I care too much but my anger makes it seem like I don't care at all. I'm poetic at times but never know which words are appealing, to the one person I care about too much to let her fall. 

If she ever sees this, I'm talking about my best friend C. You know who you are.

I always want people to like me but I don't even like myself.

I sometimes hate who I am as a person which is also why I sometimes love myself.

My message in these words is to give you  look into my mind. I'm a overly complex person which I never wanted to be. I could never let myself be a kid. I always feel like the world is on my shoulders (it never is). I felt like if I disappoint one person, I disappoint myself.

I've had a good life so honestly I hope these feelings just come with the puberty pack.

Now that I've gotten that off my chest. Let's go to the lighter side of life (which is way bigger than the dark)

Whenever I'm stressed I run to alone time and creativity. I write raps, lyrics, poems, and spoken word to clear my mind when basic conversation can't cut it.

I eventually want to produce my own music because I have a lot to say. I want to be that one celebrity with the lyrics to make somebody's day better.

I also really love nature. Being out surrounded by bliss. I sometimes feel like when I'm by myself. I'm free to be as weird as I can.

That brings me to the topic of my many names. I get bored with things quickly as I grow up and my 'stage names' have evolved into more mature and creative things. When I was younger, I used to call myself Laddy T (yes with 2 d's. I was lame like that). I would tell everybody in school that my name is Laddy T. After I started embracing the urge to make something of myself. To be something on a stage, I got real serious about my name... I changed it to

(drum roll)

Madam T.

I laughed at that myself. I thought I was so dapper and cool because my name was more advanced than the words kids my age could read at the time. I love thinking back onto things like that because my nostalgic feelings remind me of summer, when I was too naive to worry about anything or when 1+1 was the hardest and easiest problem of the time.

Some things went on in my life where I wasn't really concerned about music any more so the stage names stopped... until earlier last year. I deemed myself 

(drum roll)

Unique.

yep

that's it.

Just unique. I was thinking OH EVERYBODY WILL BE ENVIOUS OF MY SUPER COOL NAME. I thought I would be the next Zendaya, or Nelly, or any other celebrity who only goes by one name.

Now, for the time being, I'll either go by Lucid or Unique. There has been a lot of names in the middle of those but those were the ones that really stood out to me, they changed who I am. They changed how I think. I really do enjoy life (even though from the beginning of this I went all depressing) I enjoy the opportunities we all get to experience. Good and bad. They shape us as people. 

My Over Complexity Is What Makes Me Unique

I might've gotten a little too deep in this story but I want to thank all the readers who made it to the end of this, I want to thank Wattpad for being a safe haven and I want to say to everyone entering this contest 

Good Luck.

I can't wait to learn more about what makes you, you.