skinny
i crave skinny
so tonight is another night
to sit by the mirror
squeeze my thighs
poke my stomach
i'll eat nothing
and drink my tea with no sugar
because to indulge in calories
would be admitting
that i am the pig
my mother always accused me of being
i have never been accused
of being skinny
the cure for hunger, tonight?
another glass of water
what i truly hunger for
is skinny
i obsess
over skinny
just for tonight, i will allow myself to believe
that one day
i could be beautiful
that i could starve myself
to the brink of death
in order to achieve
the only thing
that would make me worthy of love
i long for it
i crave it
skinny
