6/3/14
This week i must hae an all time low all around me my friends seem to have problems, one won't be quiet about a guy she ancies and i try to help her other complain about their parents as if they were beaten, one might be pregnant and another won't eat and i feel like i'm trapped in a circle of problems with no way out to help myself. But it's my job to help them i have to be a good friend the one they can rely on but i wish i could tell them i came so close the other day the relasp right on my fingers but i walked away from the blade in a way i think i just made mysel worse i need a way, to release it all.
Those girls are still wispering stuff behind me as if i can't here them they complain about mu existance but it's not like i asked to be born.. I've had two arguments with my dad and three with my mum but it's all bottled up and i fear they might lose it but i'll run and hide :/
Dave's at the vets because he hurt his foot and it's my fault but i didn't mean it i just wish i could do something to help but the house is so silent it's starting to scare me. I wish i could go off on my own and not have to worry about anything, i wish i could dissapear but it's not going to happen...
bye
Jordan
