Me and my Brokenheart

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

"How are you Mica?" Xave asked while looking straight in my face. It makes me feel awkward but I still smile to him. We are here in our usual place. In the park, where we usually meet up to date.

"I'm fine, love. Is there something wrong?" I looked him worriedly. I know there's something wrong to him. Nagtaka naman ako ng hindi niya ako tinawag sa callsign naming dalawa. Hindi siya mapakali at tingin ng tingin sa akin. It seems may gusto siyang sabihin but I don't know what it is.

"M-mica. I'm sorry." Taka ko siyang tinignan. Why is he saying sorry? May nagawa ba siyang mali?

Humarap siya sa akin at huminga ng malalim. He looked at me seriously and smile at me sadly.

"I don't love you anymore." I was shocked when he said it bluntly. What? Nagkamali lang ba ako ng rinig?

"Love, what are you saying?" Pakla kong sabi sa kanya. Hahawakan ko sana ang kamay niya pero iniwas niya lang ito. I was hoping mali ang pagkakarinig ko, no it's not true.

"Please, Mica. Stop." He was smiling at  me sadly at tumayo siya. Tumayo din ako at hinarap siya.

"What? I love you Xave." I was looking straight in his eyes, nagbabasakaling nagloloko lang siya o nagbibiro man.

"Where Mica?" He almost yell it. Napatigalgal ako at napaatras sa gulat.

"What?" Napahilamos siya sa mukha sa sinabi ko. I'm still confuse, bakit siya nagkakaganito?

"Show me! This love,... I can't see it... I can't feel it. Yes I can hear, hear your lying words." He looked devastated while looking at my face.

I was speechless for a moment.How can he say that to me? My feelings are true, how can he doubt it?

"What are you talking about Xave!? My feelings are true towards you! Are you doubting my feelings?" I looked at him in disbelief, he's in verge of crying infront of me, right now.

Mapakla akong natawa at napahilamos na din ng mukha. I was already crying without noticing it. Damn tears.

"I have another woman, Mica. It's not you anymore." Isang malakas na sampal ang dumapo sa mukha niya ng marinig ko ang litanya niya.

"Why? Why Xave? Why did you do this to me?" I was sobbing, pilit pinipigilan ang mga hikbi na lumalabas sa aking bibig.

We are happy, loving and taking care of each other and just in an instant, we are falling apart.

"I told you, I don't love you anymore." Iniwas niya ang tingin niya sa akin at pilit na pinipigilan ang sarili niyang luha.

"Why? dahil ba hindi ko maibigay ang gusto mo? kaya ka naghanap ng iba!? Tell me!?" Pigil kong sigaw sa kanya. Napahilamos siya muli sa mukha niya at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang braso.

"Yes, Damn it! You can't do it! I have my needs Mica! At hindi mo iyon maibigay. I can't love you anymore." Pabagsak niyang ibinaba ang kamay niya sa akin. I was stunned for a moment. Hindi ako makapaniwalang masasabi niya iyon.

"Damn you. We're done." Sinampal ko uli siya bago kinuha ang bag na nakalapag sa bench. 

"From now on, wala ka ng kilalang Mica sa buhay mo. Let us just be strangers. No more Mica in your life." I walked away from him. The last thing I've seen in his face is his sad smile.

Mapait akong napangiti habang naglalakad pauwi. I looked up in the sky nang biglang pumatak ang ulan. I smile again as the rain drops in my face. Malaya akong lumuha ng walang nakakakita.

Xave was my first boyfriend and it really damn hurts hearing those words. I can't believe na magagawa niya yun sa akin dahil lang sa napakawalang kwentang rason.

Habol niya lang pala ang virginity ko. Damn, why? My heart hurts damn hard. Bakit? Bakit ganun kadali sa kanyang sabihin na hindi niya ako mahal. It's freaking 1 year na naging kami pero sasayangin niya lang yun.

He promise me that he will never hurt and leave me. He promise me that he will give me his world and will make me happy pero bakit ganun? Biglang nagbago ang lahat?

Damn, Xave. You hurt me bigtime. Ano ng gagawin ko? Can I still live without you? Kakayanin ko kaya?

I'm now here in my home, alone again. I looked the raindrops in my window flowing in the glass. I let the coldness embrace me. Inihilig ko ang ulo sa bintana at tinignan lang muli ang ulan na pumatak.

I tiredly looked my phone when it rangs. I smiled a bit when I saw who called me. It was my Dad. I answered it.

"Hi, Honey." He genuinely said.

"Hi, Dad. What's up?" I tried to cheer up my voice so that my father will not notice it.

"What's wrong honey? Is there something wrong?" Dad definitely knows whenever I'm sad or not.

"Ah I'm fine Dad. Why did you call?"

"Someone needs to manage the company in France. Your kuya is busy in managing our business in U.S at hindi ko na maistorbo dahil busy na din siya sa pamilya niya kaya I will send you there. Is it okay to you honey?" I smiled when Dad said it. Maybe in this way makakalayo ako at makakalimot sa kanya niya.

"Okay Dad. When will I go there?"

"Wow, that's fast honey. Papayag ba si Xave niyan?" I smiled bitterly when I heared his name. Sandali akong natahimik sa tanong ni Dad.

"Hello? Honey, are you still there?"

"We are over." I heared dad gasped in between are call.

"What? When? Bakit hindi ko alam anak? Are you okay?" Natunugan ko ang pag-aalala ni Dad sa akin. Napabuntong hininga ako bago sumagot.

"Kanina lang po. I will be fine, Dad." I assure him kahit wala naman talagang kasiguraduhan. I felt helpless and hopeless.

"Oh God, I'm sorry to hear that Honey. I will not ask you kung bakit but please be okay, honey. We are here for you. You can go this week in U.S. You could have a vacation if you want before you start to handle the company there."

"Yes, Dad I will. Maybe the other next day aalis na ako. Magpapaalam lang muna ako sa mga kabigan ko tomorrow Dad. Thank you, I'll hang na po."

"Okay Honey. Magpahinga ka na muna ngayon at wag na munang alalahanin ang ibang bagay. Basta kung may kailangan ka. Just tell to us, okay?"

"Yes, Dad. Bye na po. I love you." Mapait na naman akong napangiti ng sabihin ang huling mga salita. That 3 words, damn.

"Okay, I love you too." Then Dad hang up.

Napahiga ako sa kama ng matapos ang tawag. This day was really tiring. I should get some sleep for tomorrow.

As I close my eyes, a tear escaped in my eyes.