Do you remember?

When I took a step out of the box

So, where to start. Well I suppose the most logical starting position would be when I took the first step out of my comfort zone or in other words "out of the box." Okay let's start all the way back in 6th grade. I have always been an insicure individual. I was super shy growing up and to be honest, I still am. I'm much better than I was but, still a little shy.
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I used to hang out with this one girl. For privacy reasons let's call her..... Julie. So, Julie and I met in 1st grade. From the instant she asked me to be her best friend we were basically inseperatable. We had sleepovers almost every weekend and I was always at her house. Ok, so Julie and I are best buds all the way up till 6th grade. That's when things started to change. You know how they always say you'll grow out of friends and make new ones bla bla bla. Well, I never have liked change but little did I know thats what I needed. Julie started hanging out with the more "popular" girls. Naturally I followed her to that table at lunch. Well, I never really was "popular". I'm not saying I was hated, yeah I had friends but I just wasn't into that whole "label yourself popular or unpopular." I kind of just sat to the side of things most times.
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I follow Julie to the popular girls table and no surprise.... Absolutely no one knows I'm there. No one talked to be or even pays me any kind of attention at all. I was basically eating lunch on my own. That was one of my biggest fears going into middle School. Little 6th grade me eating lunch alone. ▪️▫️▪️
Finally after about two months I had had enough. Every marking period we are allowed to  change our seats. I told myself I was going to finally do it. I was finally going to get some new friends.
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I walked into the cafeteria that day worried and having no were to sit. I looked around the cafetiria​. Two tables down from the popular girls table there was a group of people sitting at the end of one of the tables. 1 girl and 2 boys. I recognized them from my elementary school. One I had gone to daycare with but we had grown far apart and barley glanced at each other in the halls. One I remember seeing in kindergarten. She was nice enough. I never really talked to her before. One that came into our school in 3rd grade.
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I made myself move forward and over to their table. "Hi" I said nervously. They all looked at me at the same time and my stomach dropped a little bit. "Can I sit here?"