Life Is Extra Sometimes

Starting Over I Guess

WOW OKAY. So much shit happened??

Shit that happened (in chronological order)
•I ditched my best friend because my (ex) boyfriend didn't like her and he's an abusive asshole so I listened to him
•it got ugly because we're both stubborn and petty
•I got grounded for having all F's
•I got my room taken away so I have to sleep in my sisters room
•I got my phone taken away
•I stole my back and hid it
•my (ex) boyfriend wanted me to come over to have sex
•I told him it was a bad idea because my parents would notice me gone and I'm already in a lot of trouble
•he kept insisting
•he's an abusive asshole so I listened to him
•I went to his house
•my parents called the police and they found me and drove me home
•my parents cried and yelled at me for 2 hours straight
•my parents didn't talk to me for about a month
•my parents dropped me out of school
•I stole my phone back a few times
•my parents found out every time
•they hated me more every time
•my boyfriend broke up with me because the relationship was too hard on him
•(he's an abusive asshole)
•my parents started trusting me again
•Two months later and my parents let me use technology again
•(no social media)
•I got my cousin to block my ex on everything
•my mom put me in JobCorps
•I started talking to my best friend again
•it's lit
•apparently everyone at school hates me
•it's not lit anymore

And now I'm trying to not care about people hating me for a mistake I made months ago but what can I do? They didn't like me before anyway. It's not like my self esteem is low enough already. Like I'm trying really hard to be okay with myself and focus on being happy and worry about my future, and then high school bullshit comes back again. I've been so happy about not having stress from school anymore and it's been great, and then people who never even liked me decide to judge the fuck out of me. Eghhhh I hate other people sometimes.

P.s. My ex boyfriend is an abusive asshole and even though I'm finally over him, I look forward to the day I can roast the fuck out of him without crying or feeling bad (because I'm an emotional bitch who cries for everything)