Dear diary,
I have decided to record my daily life online. When i look back on my life i noticed that its a crazy rollercoaster one day im crying the next im laughing. While im writing i might as well tell you bought me and my day. My name is Leah i live in new orleans louisiana. Im 14 years old. I hate when people say years of age that sounds stupid and nerdy to me. Today i called my step mom. I havent talked to her or my dad in five years. She called before but my drunk grandpa answered and flipped out. She called too make sure that im ok because my mom recently went to jail. She has a very bad drug problem so she going to do some time. When i called her i was nervous but i did it. We talked for a long time about alot of stuff. We got on the subject of moving by them. I took a long shot and said yes on sunday she will be picking me up. I havent seen my dad in over 12 years or something like that. I told a couple of people and they said that i was moving to fast and that i dont know him and ect. But im sticking with my choice. This is my second chance in life and im taking it. Im tired of being told im nothing everyday and that i have nothing by my grandpa. Dont get me wrong my grandpa isnt always mean its only wen he is drunk. I would go live with my grandma but she is the same way except she sometimes will put her hands on you. She is crazy but i love her. Thats all i got the rest of my family aint shit to me. One of the most important person in life. Past away last summer, i felt so bad cause i didnt visit her in the hospital. When she did die i didnt cry i guess im just so use to being hurt that it didnt fase me. Tell u the truth i really dont have feelings. When i do its horrible. When they say that when ur depressed u feel like ur drowning while everyone is breathing its the truth. But u get use to it after a couple of years. I think thats enough of my drama so good night and see u tomorrow hopefuly.
