What am I supposed to do here. I'm stuck in a world where I can't do anything or say anything because my fears control me. I want to be forward. I want to succeed. And yet every ounce of me is telling me to do it all, I don't. Why? Because I'm here. I'm alone. I'm young and I'm dumb. So what now? How am I supposed to move on and get out of this place? How are people able to succeed in this environment while I stay here and break. I break and I fall apart. But what for? For nothing. Over nothing. I am sad and terrible for no good reason other then the fact that I feel stuck. How is it that some people have their lives in order. Why are some people able to do all that they want and be good at it. I have so many ideas and maybe too many that I know I can never accomplish. But sometimes I have to ask myself, why? What is holding me back from my dreams? And of course I respond with whatever excuse I have at the ready and accept my inevitable fate. I am nothing. I have always been and forever will be nothing. I'll keep not having purpose or worth until I figure my life out. I have to decide. No. I have to do. I finally need to stop thinking. Stop planning and just do. Dive in, head first and take the plunge. Maybe I'll fail but what if I don't.
