Moving On
Delilah
I woke up in a strange place. It felt peaceful. Nice. The best thing about it was who was right in front of me. The one person that I really wanted to see for a long time. Jonas.
He comes up to me, and brushes my cheek. We smiled. I was so happy to be reunited with him again, even though I know this isn’t going to last long. Even so, I want to spend every possible last minute with him.
We sat there, cuddling. I missed this so bad. It felt like eternity since the last time we slept like this, and I was glad we have another chance.
Suddenly, he pulled back frowning. I look at him confused. Why was he acting this way? He kept mumbling to himself “I can’t do this, I just can’t” over and over again. I tried calming him down, but nothing was working. Giving up, I tried asking the question that’s been bothering me since he freaked out on me.
“Why can’t you do this?”
He abruptly stopped, which is a good sign. He gave me a sad smile but shook his head.
“You wouldn’t want to know Lilah”
“Trust me. I do. I want to know why we can’t do the things we want to? And don’t deny this, I know you do.”
He looked so unsure, but he still spoke, voice wavering a bit. “I’m not real Lilah. Just a fragment of your imagination.” My eyes widen. This can’t be true, can it? “You’ve been depressed the last few day, losing me. You don’t want to face the truth though. The Nazis were planning to send you to a gas chamber soon if you keep this up, did you know that?”
I shake my head. All of this, it can’t be true. He can’t be just a fragment of my imagination. He looked so real, and feels so real too. I touched him, how could he not be real?
“You’re dreaming about me right now because your body needs to warn you that you must stay strong. I know you’re getting weaker, but you must hold on, okay? I know it’s hard, but you can do it.”
“But if I die I get to be with you!” I cried out.
“Delilah, listen. This is not your time to go. You still have many things to do, many places to explore, and I can’t stop you. Listen to your body and just hold on. Promise you’ll do that for me, okay?”
“Promise.” I whispered as I nodded and wiped some of the tears I didn’t know I had off my face.
“Just remember Lilah, I’ll always be here, waiting. I love you.” He said as he slowly faded into the surroundings.
I fell on my knees and started sobbing heavily.
I gasped as I woke up. It was all a dream, but it felt so real. I groaned in pain as I rub my back the best I could. The floor is never a great place to sleep. Too hard. But here, it was the best sleeping condition that they had.
That day when Jonas had died, it broke my heart. My best friend and love of my life was leaving me. Leaving his life too soon. I needed him. It was hard dealing with it, but by each passing day, I felt like I’ve gotten better. Somehow. Still felt depressed though. It was like a piece of my heart that Jonas held, broke apart. Was lost and would never be returned to its rightful owner. I know one day I will move on. It might take forever but I will. I won’t break my promise to Jonas, never.
Suddenly, outside, there was cheering. Like a celebration. I wonder what was going on. This never would happen. Curiosity had gotten the best of me and I wandered out to see what all the commotion was about.
Everyone was cheering. Not a single Nazi in sight. That’s strange. My first thought was.
I asked a happy looking prisoner what had happened.
“Didn’t you hear? We’re liberated! We’re finally free!” He cheered.
I froze. I didn’t want to believe it. We actually were free. After being here for only a few months, I don’t think this is quite possible. But as much as I tried to deny the liberation news, my heart and surroundings disagreed.
I kept my promise, Jonas. I thought. I stayed strong and now I’m finally liberated!
I laughed as I joined the screaming crowd cheering. It felt great to be finally free. To be doing what we want since a long time ago. I loved every second of it. I finally can go back to the life I was living before. Excluding Jonas.
I’m finally free.
