By the time i was 14 she still was striking once a month but not caught. And my mental health was going downhill. I carved a place for my pain hurt or not i wished it all away and the knives helped me disappear. I came to the realization no one gave a damn and i was just another needy kid with a sob story no one cared to hear. And when i was 14 i would never let that shit be seen, I may have needed help but i believed i could cut it away and i did for a while. George took me on the crime scenes sometimes and i blamed myself for the dead bodies.
Every night i picked fights with the past seeing that i could've stopped her so i stayed up all night every night finding a fix.
it never came. So I bled I made myself bleed. and just watched it.
At five my mother murdered my family and how was i to live now the daughter of a killer
people had seen me on their TVs . Boys and girls say they love me but what about before mom they didn't care... who knows... Maybe my mother being this monster has brought me all these people or they want attention. I only had one friend before, now everyone wants to be my friend.
I took walks with the dog, while George and Lisa had it was hard to be seen in public with me everyone pointing and whispering, yet this one girl always caught my eye she sat on the corner in the last patch of grass on the street just sitting there eyes closed taking in the sun I never said anything to her she didn't know who I was and that's rare and i wanted to keep it that way. But slowly she came to realize I walked so often that led to conversation and then she knew. 5'4" eyes as green as her hair and personality as big as her hair too. thick makeup and white jeans, black boots that could scare anyone straight i couldn't help wanting to talk to her. 3 months i walked past her not having anything to say
"whats up vampire?" she shouts while i get lost in my thoughts
"What umm " i cough out "What do you mean?"
"dude your dog is peeing on your foot and you haven't noticed" she laughs out
I jump back "SHIT" she stands up doubled over laughing "nice to meet you vamp" she says
"nice to meet you too green"
"i like it green and vamp great team"
