Red (MarkiplierxReader)

Explain for me

I stare at my diary pain overwhelming me... He hurt me
He played me
He mistreated me
Or did I fool my self
In thinking he cares
Or did I dream this all up
Am I going to wake up now
Back into my dull grey world wear there is no red
Or will I live on
Taking life a step at a time
Will he hold me in his arms
Or will he push me so I fall
I look at the mirror and laugh sadly, I'm taking to my self about a boy who doesn't love me

Pulling on my shoes, I'm going for a walk... Happiness now non existent, the grey overwhelming me... I hear trees are green... What does green look like...how would you explain a tree to me?

His voice could now be heard "it's cooling like an autumn breeze still warm but so cool you feel nice, it makes you feel like your running your hand threw grass, the feeling of nature that makes you smile" I turn to look at him and blink "how did yo-" as I reopen my eye I see a colour on his shirt that I've never seen one like the colour he just explained...