I Can't Believe It's Him

Goodbyes and Hellos

Two weeks have gone by and I haven't had my heat. No one has seemed to notice... or that's what I thought.

"Eren," Mikasa came into my room carrying a full bottle of pills, not even opened. Those pills hold back my scent and urges.

"I'm pregnant," I blurted out. Her face reminded cold and expressionless. I waited for her to say something.

"Mikasa...?" I asked hesitatingly.

"What do you plan on doing Eren?" Mikasa asked, leaning against the door frame. "Do you really want to have Jean's baby? Now, while you're still in high school?"

I bit my lip. Do I...? The baby isn't Jean's though...but only I know that. I told Armin that I told Jean and that I slept with him that night. I still have no idea who I slept with. I haven't told Jean either.

"Jean doesn't know-"

"Dammit Eren!" Mikasa exclaimed and slammed the bottles of pills down on my desk. "You need to stop letting him walk all over you! Stop acting like an obedient lap dog!"

I think the reason why I have stayed with Jean this long is because no one else seems to have an interest in me. That and I'm still afraid that Jean will kill me if I try to leave him again.

"I'll tell him," I say honestly.

I asked Jean to meet me outside during lunch. "What is it?" Jean asked. "Your lucky they're serving crap today."

When don't they? I wanted to say but there was something more important to tell him.

"Jean I'm pregnant," I say. I can't look at him. His hands grab my shirt and pin me against the wall.

"What the hell? You weren't on birth control?" He snapped at me. I decided to listen to Mikasa. I was tired of everything being my fault in our relationship.

"You're the one that didn't wear a fucking condom!" I snapped back and shoved him off me. "Quit blaming everything on me!"

"Well it's your fucking fault!" Jean yells. "I can't do this anymore! I give up! I'm done with you! And I want nothing to do with that fucking child. It's your fault you deal with it." I watched as he stormed off.

I felt like crying. But why? I didn't actually love him. Maybe because I thought he loved me. I thought he loved me when he smiled at me, when he bought me ice cream, when we stayed up all night talking over the phone and laughing, when he took me out on dates and treated me like a prince, and when he would kiss me tenderly and whisper a soft I love you.

Maybe that was the old Jean. The Jean I first started dating. Maybe we were in love, but we lost it. Maybe that's why I cried.

Jean shut me out completely after that day. He wouldn't even look in my direction. I missed him. Well I missed the idea of him. I missed the old him. I guess I stuck around hoping for the old him to come back.

I've been so distracted by Jean that I didn't notice the handsome stranger stopped riding the bus even though he said same time tomorrow. I wondered what happened to him.

I decided to walk home from school one day. I went to the bakery and got some bread for my mom. I knew she'd appreciate it.

As I walking home I noticed a new tattoo shop had opened up. I looked inside and I saw the handsome stranger talking to some blonde tall guy.

I walked inside as I saw the blonde guy wonder off somewhere. "Hey," I said and those dark eyes looked at me.

He smiled slightly. "Hey beautiful eyes," he said.

"Levi stop flirting," the blonde guy said as he came back.

"I'm not," he said looking at the blonde guy. "It's a fact." The blonde guy looked at me.

"Okay you have a point," he said and walked away again.

"You said 'same time tomorrow' but never showed up," I said and I could even hear the disappointment in my voice.

"Ah sorry," Levi said. Levi. Now this handsome stranger had a name. "I got this job and I have to leave earlier."

"No one is here though..." I noticed.

"Yeah this place is busier at night, but Erwin and got stuck working the day shift," he said. "We had a few customers this morning..." his eyes met mine.

"Even though your eyes are beautiful," Levi said. "I much rather have a name to call you by."

"I'm Eren," I said. "Eren Yeager."

He smiled at me. "Go home Eren," he said. "Before your bread gets cold."