It's Always Been You // h.s

~ Idiot

Harry

"Fuck fuck fuck!" I yelled out and hit the wall near me.

I've no idea what the fuck I've just done.
The way she flinched when I yelled at her , dammit . I groaned in frustration at my idiotic behaviour.

I walked out of the dressing room , leaving violet in there on her own, i was now stood in the hallway leaning against the wall . I ran my hands through my hair and sighed . Trying to calm down myself down.

It's not that i didn't like her. I just couldn't.

That day, two weeks ago, when i had first laid eyes on Violet , I could've sworn i felt my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach. I don't know what it is about her, but I was in complete awe . There was no doubt that the girl was stunning , she was absolutely fucking beautiful . That much was quite obvious, and she was completely bare, i mean, you could tell she had no make up on, she wore simple T-shirt and jeans , her brown hair was in messy waves and dropped down past the bottom of her back . Her skin was a little darker than olive and her dark eyes were so .. christ , i don't even know how to explain it , they were so captivating and beautiful and pure , that when ai looked at her, i couldn't look away. And that scared me the most. But there was something else there, it wasn't just the entirety of her beauty, it was something else, and i've no idea what but I just couldn't look away.

The way i felt when she looked right into my eyes , It scared the fucking shit out of me , I could feel my palms sweating and my heart racing , I've never felt that way before . But i don't even know what 'that' is . The last  time I felt something similar to whatever that was, Thats why i had completely ignored her, and been so cold with her, i was afraid. I don't need that.

Doesn't mean I had to be a complete dick to her though, she apologised to me for fucks sake , but i completely rejected her apology and pretty much told her to fuck off , but i didn't really need her to apologise . If i'm being honest , it wasn't what she said about Megan that bothered me , it was the fact that i'm the one who Megan's dating , which easily makes me her walking, talking play toy, according to her and the world and thats not what I am , i mean , yeah , she's my girlfriend , but that doesn't mean that i'm her fucking sex toy , i didn't want her to think i was easy. Because i'm not. Which is probably what everyone thinks of me.

"Aye mate , you okay " ? I heard Zayns voice ask from behind me. I turned to him and sighed.

"Yeah , i'm good man , i just , i don't know , i -" I stopped talking when i heard the dressing room door open as Violet came out and walked passed , not even acknowledging my existence and sending a breathtaking smile towards Zayn . He returned the gesture with a nod and turned back to me once she was out of sight.

"You and Violet still not talking huh "? Zayn asked , clearly noticing the tension between the two of us . None of the boys knew of the situation between Violet and i , all they knew was that Taylor didn't want me talking to her. And I knew the boys didn't approve of her either. They all think it's a publicity stunt.

"uh , nah, not really , i may have screwed everything up though " i told Zayn , running my hands through my hair.

"what do - "

"Boys ! Come on , you're on " Paul yelled out cutting Zayn off .

I sighed for what seemed like the umpteenth time that day as Zayn looked at me sadly .

"it's alright mate , you'll be fine , we'll talk later yeah ? " Zayn said , patting my back in sympathy as we walked towards the stage . I could already hear the loud screams  .

*

"hello" I huffed into the phone .

"Hey , babe " Megan's voice came through the phone as she greeted me .

"Hey Meg , you okay ? " It was nearing midnight and i had just entered my home after the concert . I took off my shoes as i walked through my apartment and towards my bedroom .

"Yeah , just a really tiring day at work , met up with Ed and got a few songs written down . There was this lady at work  today i had to fire because .. " I zoned out as taylor spoke , i lay down on my bed , closing my eyes . But all i could see were her eyes , her piercing brown eyes that held me captivated at first glance .  The eyes that i couldn't get out of my head as much as i tried .

Dammit Violet .

I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration .

"Harry !" Megan's voice snapped through the phone.

" Oh , sorry , what ? "

"Have you even been listening to a word i've been saying?"

"No" i sighed . "Sorry , i'm just tired"

"Okay , well like you haven't been speaking to that Viola girl have you ? " Her voice accusing .

"It's violet" I corrected, but i'm sure as hell that she knew exactly what her name is.

"Yeah , yeah , well stay away from her , she's such a bitch, i mean who does she think she is - "

"Megan" ! i snapped at her in frustration . "You sound like you're 12, grow the hell up. From what i've seen of violet, she really is quite nice".

"Whatever, harry " she said back angrily and hung up. childish.

"Women" i yelled out and got up to go have a shower , with only one person in mind.

Those damn brown eyes .