secrets of the heart and mind

School's a pain in the #@!

After my 15 th birthday party i was told that i had 24 hrs to pack and leave. The morning i was suppose to leave i actually got down on my knees crying and begging them not to send me however i soon realized it was no as my parents were always head strong on their decisons. Thus, I eat my breakfast in slience after which I haulded what little clothes was given to me over my back hoping into the lambougeni that would take me to my new school and new home not once glancing back at the place i had learnt over the years to call my dear beloveth home. The first day of school wasn't so bad.The ride to school was very long. Turns out my parents picked a school that was approximately a 15 hour drive from my, i mean their house. My chauffeur dropped me off just on the outskirts of my new school which accoring to my driver was mom's order i can't belive she's that embarrassed of me. So now here i am climbing up a steep 40 feet hill in my  prada heals with not one but three suitcasses. My life is sooo great(not). Silly me not looking where i was going walked head long straight into a stop sign. If that wasn't embarrassing enough try having a bus load of teenagers laughing their asses off at you. The laughing wasn't so bad but my world came crumbling down when they sarted saying bad things about me.

" Watch where your going dork"

"Hey someone call the mother duck i think she's missing her one and only ugly duckling or maybe she just couldn't stand to see it's face so she had to set it free" a dude shouted above the laughing from the other guys. By the last comment i actually had tears welled up in my eyes. I stood still for a minute having a little chat with my inner self. Did i mention i talked a lot to the voice in my head? .

' are these kids really gonna make you cry?'the voice in my head asked

'no big girls don't cry and besides i'm a strong girl,i can handle this. They don't know me and what i'm capable of. Just wait and see i'll make them rue the day.muahhaha'.
I sometimes feel crazy talking to myself.

"You are crazy, your actually having a coversation in your mind"
Don't judge me , i know you guys talk to your selves sometimes and your probably worst than me.

After my little pep talk i looked up only to see them laughing at me even harder than before. It seems to me that i may not have only been talking to myself."could this day get anymore worst?"

"yes!" they all chorused in at the same time

"why can't i talk in my mind like normal people?'as i asked this i realized that once again i had spoken. A guy actually poked his head out his window and answered

"well let us answer that question for you. Let's see number 1 you aren't normal, 2 . Just look at you there's no word to describe you.your just........"

" i'm just what? ugly?"no one responded this time

"isn't that what you were gonna say ?"
They all stared at me in disbelief that i had actually said that, not needing to say anything else i speed walked away in the direction of the school. At this point my blood began to boil at what i would assume is over a 100oc . I didn't know why i felt this way but it was the same way i felt before i had attacked that girl at my last school nearly killing her, all i knew was that i had to get out of here before i went rouge on them and ending up doing something i knew i would regret later on.

Through all my complaining and the little mis hap back there, i hadn't noticed how beautiful the walk to school was. Trees upon trees surrounded me giving me the feeling of actually being in the woods. The trees gave me an odd feeling of comfort. It was almost like i belonged there and it was calling me, screaming for me to come closer. I would have taken it up on its offer as  there was a little lake beyond the trees. It was so breath taking with birds flying above it while singing a happy tune that almost sounded as if they were singing a disney princess tune. As they sang their little song i began feeling  a little bit better.

Well you know me nothing ever goes my way as i was interupted yet again but this time by a tap on the shoulder. Dont call me dramatic or anything but i literally just jumped 10 feet above the ground. Turns out i did actually jump and began to stumble but before i could hit the ground strong muscluar hands wrapped securely around my waist and steadied me. Looking up to see who had steadied me i recognized him as one of the guys who had made fun of me back there. Once i realized this i tried to get out of his arms but being a 6ft 1000 lbs  guy he easily held me in place. Nah i'm just kidding but seriously he was huge though.

'Not so fast where do you think you are going? He asked in a very husky voice that could make any girl fall at his feet but not me.

'get your hands off me'

'GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME!'i said again but being that he didn't i brought my knee up and kicked him where the sun didn't shine. He writhered to the ground in pain holding his crotch.

'whoa,are you crazy?' i laughed in his face as he said this because his voice went high pitch like a little girl.

'well you had it coming. I told you to take your hands off me but did you listen? no ,so it serves you right. Besides it was the only way i saw to let you release me'

'so you kicked me in my precious Gems?'

'yes'

'Well FWI ,i just came to tell you that you left your suitcases back there' he said pointing in the direction in which i came from.

'oops'

'is that all you can say?'

'well what do you ant me to say?'

"ahhhh,let me think .............. maybe sorry"

'well on the contrary it wasn't my fault'

'yes it was'

'no it wasn't'

'YES IT WAS'

'NO IT WASN'T' we were practically shouting by this point like a bunch of two year olds. As if he hadn't been listening to me earlier on he asked"so you aren't gonna appologize?"

'nope' i said making sure to pop the p

'why?'

' i just told you why'

This guy is unbelievable. If anyone saw us here arguing like we were they might have mistaken us as a couple but the fact is we just met. He began staring at me as if was expecting me to break down and apologize but being the stubborn girl that i am i also stared right back. Well staring at someone can get pretty boring so after relizing I had nothing to say , i speed walked back in the direction of my suitcases. After collecting them i walked to school alone.

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