Stumbled

chapter 14

yesterday was the last day of tour in Dubai and today is the day we pack and hit the road for Brussels, Belgium. I decided to have a lazy day and wear something comfortable. I take one more look at the beautiful aquarium at the end of the room before I meet the boys and joe in  the lobby. I get out of the lobby and everything starts spinning and I fall to the ground shaking my thought go crazy and before I know it I'm out with the count.

I wake up on the tour bus in brads arms with him singing stay softly in my ear with the other boys playing FIFA. I didn't want to leave, Brads singing makes my heart melt. He feels me shuffle and looks down at me and stops singing.
"Are you okay" he saying hugging me tighter
"Yeah" I say letting a tear fall from my eye as I feel my head pound with thoughts. I feel my body start to go weak and the light start to flicker although there aren't. I feel and hot tear fall from my eye and land of my cold skin and everything goes black again. I really don't know what's going on anymore, I mean, I'll be fine for a while then suddenly I just keeping getting anxiety attacks but to be honest they never really seem to go even when I'm fine.

I wake up in Joe's arms.
"Hey Joe what happened"
"Well you sorta had another anxiety attack and you,ve been out for a while" he said hugging me close.
"Oh" a tear falls from my eye " where are the others, Bradley"
"Their on stage"
"Can I go see him "
"Are you sure about that there's a lot of people"
"Yes I'm sure"
"Okay"
I get up and follow Joe to the back stage doors. He tells the Guards to let me through. I walk through the doors and I'm inches away from the stage. I stop and take a deep breathe. there's a lot of fans out there am I sure I can do this? I ask myself closely as I close my eyes gently and taking a deep breathe.

I looked the side of the stage at the director of the concert shoots me a loving smile before he mumbles something into a earpiece and arena goes silent as you here brads voice echo around the room

" how's it going Brussels are we having a good time, I  have  a special guest with me today my gorgeous girlfriend, olive"

I hear the crown go wild as I walk slowly out on to the stage and the cheers get a lot louder

as I am out on the stage brad decides to play the acoustic version of somebody to you

I used to wanna be                                                                                                                                                             

living like there only me

but now I spend my time

thinking about a way to get

you off my mind

(yeah you )

the last 4 months has to be the best 4 months I've even had I don't have to worry about being me I've totally been myself and I think that is so important, and I still cant believe I get to spend the next 7 months with my 4 favourite guys and their manager.
I'm on the tour bus sketching and crying, all the pain of being sick is driving me in sane, as these thoughts are running through my head the doors of the bus fly open and James walks in.
"Hey olive you okay"
"Oh yeah I'm fine"
And just then I'm heart stops and I'm gone.