lost sunshine //yoonseok

late

I fill up the tub

and dive in

the tears falling from my face

blending in

with the overflowing water

I sit

clothed

but feeling naked

breathing

but feeling dead

I stare at the bathroom tiles

looking at the one that

hoseok and I shattered

when we were 5

I tear off a shard that was still in place

I watch it slide against my arm

horizontal scars

opening vertically

blood spilling out

turning the water a deep red

a harsh sting

that I feel starting to fade

I do the other arm

as my vision goes hazy

I start sinking

I feel the voices

going silent

but I hear one voice

a scream

oh

there's my sunshine.