Lethal Love

chapter 1

Chapter 1:

The trailer made by the lovely user @louispxradise is on the side!! Its simply amazing i hope everyone likes it as much as i do <3

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Clair's POV

Dear diary, It's been two months since the accident. I still can't face reality. It seems like a nightmare, but from this one i can't wake up. Lets face it, my life will be a living hell from now on. I think its time to set all these sad, horrible and traumatising feelings free. Everything was going on so great before everything happened. I was in the peak of my life! Why did this have to happen to me. God damn it. Im so unlu.....

"Clair come down sweetie, breakfast is ready!"

" umm..coming, aunt Sophie"

I don't know how I'm taking this onwards. My feelings are all over the place and every time I leave my bedroom, just passing through the antique corridor joining all rooms in the house, memories come rushing through my mind. Pictures are all over my apartment, how do they expect me to move on. I still don't have the strength to do so.

I cant believe today is the first day back at school. Lets see how it goes. I really do hope i don't have the urge to cry at any moment.

I unwillingly left the comfort of bed, put on my spongebob slippers and went downstairs. The smell of bacon and eggs filled my nostrils. I haven't been eating properly in a while. Hunger is one things I haven't been feeling in a long time. Lets see it on the bright side, I have lost a couple of pounds.

Yeah, you may be thinking I'm not one of that girly girls, i know, normal people will usually take a shower and change before getting breakfast, but I'm not normal, not anymore.

Without being noticed I approached the kitchen table and sat down. Making some noise so aunt Sophie could notice me, I forced on a smile.

"How are you feeling honey? Ready for your first day of school?"

"I'm trying to cope with it, and take it easy. I think its what they would want. But you know.... Its really hard." Unwanted sobs left my mouth as I finished my sentence

"Of course Clair, they would be so proud of you!" Auntie caressed my back why she spoke

I'm really grateful for having this great support from aunt Sophie. Shes all i've got. I know i am all dramatic about all this but... What can I do. It is the truth.

After eating my favourite meal of the day, I rushed upstairs and started preparing my self for school. A steamy shower was all I needed to calm myself down. I would usually spend hours choosing my outfit, doing my hair and putting on my makeup till perfection. I guess things just change. This time I would wear the basics, skinny jeans, a plain tank top and my old red converse.

Carelessly putting my hair into a loose pony tail, and applying some concealer to hide the evident lack of sleep marks, I was ready to go.

Sometimes I wonder why I need to go to school. I wish there was some kind of mind we could chose. A stress-free, young and smart one would be brilliant.

Oh, my boyfriend must be here in any minute. He's such a sweet guy. The majority of the times, Nick is the one who drives me to school. I guess its just a couple thing.

Nick, where should I start. Okay, perfect appearance, perfect personality, good grades, fantastic with any sport.... Ugh, just perfect. And I love how he loves me. I guess when a couple really loves each other its forever. No matter what.

The buzzing of my cell phone suddenly brought me back from my thoughts.

** morning love,

Be there in 5

xx Nick**

What a coincidence. I hope he doesn't get tired of me just because of the... accident.

After looking in the mirror one last time, I picked up my bag and went to the front door, kissing my aunt on the way.

Nick's Porsche had just arrived, as usual he was always in time. Like I said before. PERFECT

How will I face everyone in school? I hope they don't bring it up very often.

As soon as I opened the door, he spoke

"Hey love, how've been?"

"Fine...I guess" i humbled looking down, while fidgeting with my hands

He turned to look at me, concern clear on his eyes

Gosh, I'm such a terrible liar!

"Clair you know you can tell me the truth right? We've known each other since we were two"

"You know, I'm not ok, Nick. In fact, I'm terrible. I haven't slept in days. I've been not eating well and every time I think about them I can't stop myself from crying. I can't do it, Nick. It hurts. It just hurts so much and I can't cope with it anymore. It's like every single inch of me is in agony. They were everything to me, because they were all I had. I knew they would always be there when I needed them. I could tell them all my problems and they would always make me feel better. Why me? Why? Why did I need to lose my mum? My dad? Both at once? I can't talk to them anymore. Hug them. Kiss them, or tell how much I love them—how I'm grateful for them! But you know what hurts the most? I didn't even get to say goodbye."

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hey guys so this is a new fanfic im doing i hope you guys like it!!

there will be much more drama, romance,comedy oh and don't forget graphics!!!

so i guess if you read until here you are a very nice person and i luv ya ;)

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xo ~ LANA

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