Catfish J.B (BWWM)

Talk

1 🐑, 2 🐑, 3 🐑, i can't sleep... lmfao that rhymes

I let out a soft chuckle at my train of thoughts. I check the time on my phone to see Several unread messages and Missed calls.

Khalil (4)
Maejor (12)
Johnny (28)
Justin (58)

I opened iMessage and scanned through my texts
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[Justin]
Can you please call me back

[Justin]
Answer your phone

[Justin]
Call me.

[Justin]
If you don't answer me, I'll come find you

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I glanced at the time 4:03 A.M and I haven't had any sleep since I woke up earlier. There's a knock at the door and I groan in annoyance. I sigh and slowly walk to the door. Once again the person knocks, just a little louder.

"I heard you, you don't have to keep knocking ya know..."

I open the door and roll my eyes  when I see who it is.

"What exactly are you doing here?" I sighed.

"You weren't answering my phone calls or my texts." Justin sighed.

"Yeah and when someone does something like that there's a reason." I mumble slowly closing the door.

"You wanna take a walk?"

"Are you stupid?" I questioned tilting my head.

"There's a beach nearby, we can watch the sun come up or something. I just want to talk, please" he said scratching his neck.

"Nah, thanks tho" I smiled closing the door.

"Kayla." He said stopping the door with his foot and walking into my hotel room.

"Yeah, sure, come in." I reply sarcastically.

"We have to talk about this. We've only been here one day and I've already fucked up" he groaned.

"Well then maybe, you should start thinking with your brain and shit wouldn't get fucked up" I reply.

"I'm sorry" he whispered.

"you don't even know what you're apologizing for, you're only saying it because you know I'm upset" i sighed.

"Just tell me why? "

"Why what?"

"Why did you pursue me? Why go through all this trouble? Why keep texting, why not just cut all ties when we met? Why?"

"Is that what you want?" Hurt flickered briefly in his eyes.

"Maybe we should stop thinking about what we want and think about what we need." I sighed.

"What I need, is a sense of normality in my life. The reason I pursued you is because you make me feel steady, when I'm with you I'm not caught up in the fast lane, I'm just....me"

"I'm not here to be your little break from the fast lane, Justin. You can't just come to me when you're tired of your little spotlight and drop me whenever you're ready to face the public again-"

"And I won't! What do you need?" He asked softly.

"I need honesty and reassurance. Don't just say things. Mean them. Don't say you want me here and then when I'm here act like I don't exist, I have feelings."